Hectic Schedule!

I am certainly keeping busy these days, that's for sure! I have lectures more or less every day (it's like I get one weekday off every three or four weeks ... something like that), and for Hebrew there are lots of preparations for each lecture - we have to prepare sentences to read and translate and analyze the grammar - and then of course, LEARN all the grammar as well (lot of things to learn and know by heart). I do have taken this course before, but I'm quickly realizing I still need to put a lot of time and effort into it, in order to really learn it, and that was after all the general idea!
My other course, Old Testeament Bible Studies, are also quite intense. A lot of literature to go through, and some seminars and papers to do as well. I'm not sure quite how well I'm doing there, as there are no "check-ups" (as we get in Hebrew), but I'm really trying hard not to fall too much behind on that either ... the first exam (of Old Testament, then we're moving on to the New Testament) is already on 21 February, so it's not THAT far away either ...

What feels absolutely wonderful and yet surprises me a great deal, is how good I'm actually feeling! I'm constantly tired, and I have had some minor set-backs, but overall, I'm really enjoying myself!! This feels like it's happened more or less over-night, but I guess it has in fact been a slow process, that I'm now clearly seeing the results of. I'm really starting to find my place at the Department, I am getting to "know" people I study with (Fairly sure I have found a constant "study-date" for Hebrew, which is a girl I've never spoken to before!), I know some of the teachers around the Department, well enough for them to great me in the corridors (interestingly enough, I have had some run-ins with our current head-of-department earlier, so I'm even on "greeting-terms" with him *lol*) ... and I'm completely enjoying myself at the Department! The social thing is not yet 'perfect' in any way, I'm not the social butterfly and I don't find it that easy to initiate contact ... but I take every oportunity given to me, and sometimes I actually can initiate as well - and I'm liking it more and more by the minute. Also just being at lectures is great, I'm absorbing knowledge like a dried-up sponge, I feel like I just can't get enough, and that's amazing!!! To feel that engaged and interested in something, that previous only caused panic and anxiety and stress and pain ... I am in awe ...

Okay, this turned out to be way more serious than I had intended - sorry about that! :)
I know my posts have become a bit more scarce now, I am hoping I will be able to go back to writing every day, because I really like doing that - but sometimes my schedule are just so crazy and I'm so tired, I can't bring myself to sit down in front of the computer.

Well, I don't think I have that much else to report!! Still totally happy with my new Stargate-stuff ... although I've hardly had time to check out the dvds yet .... ;) Since I'm currently juggling three courses at the same time, I will not ever have completely caught up, but I still feel I need to take breaks on occasion, to keep my energy levels up.

Looking forward to the end of the week now ... tomorrow we only have Hebrew lectures, which are 8-10, so even if I have to get up really early, at least I'll have most of today left when lectures are over ... and then I have nothing "planned" until next lecture which is on Monday at 1 p.m.!! Yay!! Naturally I'll be studying pretty much all the time, but it feels good not having to go away somewhere, you loose a great deal of time just travelling (buses, trains, waiting etc) - and I also don't get quite so tired when I don't have to go away to Uni ... so I'm hoping to get quite a lot of work done this weekend! :)

Take care, guys!

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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: The Bible ... yup, will be for a long time! :)
Currently watching: Documentary on J.K. Rowling
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: Hebrew lecture, studies, cleaning the apartment

'Stargate SG-1'

Stargate,
It’s a great big world,
With a great big swirl that you step inside to another world.
We’re talking Stargate,
It’s a crazy trip,
You can go quite far and you don’t need a car or even a ship.
There’s Colonel O’Neill and Carter and Daniel and Teal’c.
Look out for that Go-go-go-go-go-goa’uld.

Well, I figure I'd start with the best news first! It's HERE!!!! I got my Stargate SG-1 DVD Box Set and it's the COOLEST!!! (just check out the picture!) After all the pains and miserys and hardships and worries, I finally got it! Woooo-hooooo!!! I have so limited time to watch new episodes now, so I have a feeling it will last a long time!! And it should, actually, as it contains 54 (!!) discs, all ten seasons, with 212 episodes and four bonus discs with tons of nice stuff!! *happy happy happy*
Not to mention, I got the perfect birthday gift from Annika today - totally suitable!! It was the book "Stargate SG-1 Illustrated Companion Seasons 1 and 2" ... so completely perfect!!! :) (Apologies for not having a picture of the book, my camera would totally not cooperate ...) YAY!!

Okay, not making this entire entry about Stargate! *lol*
The rest of the day has been mostly very intense and very confusing - with some really good stuff and other really bad stuff! On the really bad side of things I had to pay a customs fee for my Stargate Box, which was 564:- ... which is about US$90 - SO not fun! Also, found out that I kind of "owe" a state authority A LOOOOOT of money (it's a really long and really complicated story and I'm so not in the mood for that, sorry guys), and that just turned down my mood a great deal!

On the plus side of things was that I had a great lecture in Hebrew today - I really hope I can keep doing that and following these courses the rest of the semester, because the teacher is sooo great, and I really think it's THAT much fun! It's a lot of work, a whole lot of work, but it's very, very rewarding!
Also, I met Sara at Uni, which was great as I haven't seen her since our birthday celebration! We had company on the train home and I really enjoy talking to her (we tend to laugh a lot at the same things *lol*)!! :)

Not so great though - see, I have had a confusing day! - is that I've been very tired all day, and een though I had my mind set on finishing a paper for my Old Testament course for tomorrow there's no way I'll get it done!! It's so much work involved and I'm almost drowning in information, so it'll take some time to get it to work. Also, I'm gonna have to work a bit on my Hebrew now, as we are already entereing into stuff that I'm not completely sure of ... so I'm really feeling quite tired now.
I have lectures at 8 tomorrow, so I'll have to make it an early night tonight - as I have to leave here before 7 a.m. *yawn*

Take care, guys!

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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Still going through the Bible
Currently watching: Stargate SG-1 - season 2 *YAY*
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: Hebrew Lecture, Old Testament Lecture, studies, meeting a friend and her son, shopping ...

Trying To Prepare!

Guess it's time to start preparing for next week - week #2 of spring semester 2008!
I'm not completely happy with how the first week turned out, so naturally, I'm hoping for a better week now. Still lots and lots and lots and lots to do, but I really want this to work out, so I hope I can keep up! :)

Apart from quite a few lectures (most days I think it's two of them) I have to study a lot, as all courses I'm taking now are quite demanding! I'm also meeting a friend and her little baby (just over a month old - ADORABLE!!!) on Tuesday and I'm totally looking forward to that of course!

Not much else to write about though, I've spent the entire day studying, trying to catch up on Hebrew as well as writing a paper for the Old Testament course, so yeah, I'm busy! :)

Getting VERY annoyed with eBay though, even though I really know it's not eBay's fault ... but I STILL haven't gotten my Stargate SG-1 box!!! *angry* This time I checked out the seller in detail, so I don't think I've been ripped off again - I hope! - but it's still very strange! I payed on January 7th and on USPS website using the tracking number I got it said it had been shipped from Chicago on January 9th. When nothing happened I though it must have gotten stuck in Swedish customs, but before I emailed them, I thought I'd check USPS one last time ... well now all of a sudden it said my package had left Chicago on January 17th ... eh, HUH?!?!?! I sent an email to them straight away, but haven't heard anything.
I don't really mind if I have to pay to get it from Swedish customs, right now it feels like I don't care about anything just so long as I WILL GET IT!!! I've been shopping from eBay for years, now all of a sudden it's supposed to be completely impossible to recieve an item!?!? *deep deep sigh*
Okay, I know this is not the end of the world, and I'm not getting that upset about it, but I have payed a lot of money!!! First in November (or whenever it was, October maybe), I payed $215 and got ripped off ... and Paypal payed me back $175 - and now I've payed about $250 ... and I'm still not getting anything!
Guess all I can do is wait and see, I suppose ...

Now I'm going to try to wind down and get some sleep so I can get through next week in a decent way!
Good night!

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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: The Bible ...:)
Currently watching: From Russia With Love
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: Lots of studies, some shopping, lectures (hebrew)

Top Priorities?!

I seem to have a very big problem these days! I have no idea how to prioritize my life! I have a million things and more that I have to do, but I cannot for the life of me come up with a balance that works right now - and it's very frustrating!!

I have a lot of studying to do, after all I'm taking three courses at the same time now - way to go! - but if I were to only prioritize my studies, I wouldn't do anything else at all! I'm always behind and there are always things to do, so if all focus is on studies, I would even be sleeping or eating ... and that doesn't quite work, does it?
And I also need to keep up with things like cleaning, laundry, grocery shopping, cooking ...and also keep up with personal interests, such as the internet! Okay, so I know my own hobbies shouldn't be that much of a priority, and I have cut down on a lot of stuff, but what's left are things I'm really interested in and like doing! I enjoy my blogs, but of course it takes time to keep them updated regularly ... I'm a member of a few forums, regarding things I'm interested in, and what's the point of being a member, if you don't take part in what's going on there? I also enjoy making graphics and digi.scraps, and aparently I'm not that bad at it, because I'm getting compliments from a lot of different areas now ...

But I still ALWAYS feel bad about myself!!
If I'm studying, I have a hard time concentrating because I know I should water my flowers, or clean up the bathroom, and do I have any clothes left or do I have to do laundry?
And if I'm cleaning, or go online or whatever, I constantly feel bad for not studying ...
It's a MESS!

I know there's only been a week yet, of this semester, but I really, really, really, really hope I can find a solution that works, because I don't know if I can stand another 20 weeks of this ...

Okay, sorry about the depressing entry, things aren't really that bad right now! I've been in a better mood overall today, but I still feel very frustrated about always feeling like I'm doing the "wrong" thing, no matter what I do!

Hope you all are enjoying your weekend!

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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Actually ... the Bible! :)
Currently watching: Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: Studies, sorting through photos, cleaning, possibly shopping, computer stuff ... and probably some other stuff I can't think of right now.

Ups And Downs!

My life is certainly going through a lot of ups and downs at the moments!
I've had some down-periods lately that I'm not happy with at all! I had very high hopes for this semester, even though I knew it would be a lot of hard work I knew what I wanted to make of it ... and so far I haven't done much at all!

Okay, in my "defense", I knew I went through a lot during the weekend before this semester started, which made me tired and more or less strained me of all the energy I had. But I still really want to make this semestera good one, and I cannot do that my sitting around feeling terrible!! I do hope I can turn things around and get my life 'back-on-track' again, where it's suppoosed to be!

I'm sorry about this short entry, but I don't have much to write about, and I'm fairly tired right now! I will share some digi.scraps I made recently!! I am adding all scraps to an album, but it is only for "friends" that I trust (and include more scraps than I share here). I have sent out an invitation to this album, but if you haven't gotten one and want it, feel free to leave me a comment or send an email (jessiezorro@gmail.com). But remember I will decide wether you can an invite or not! :)
Hope you like them!!





I hope you'll enjoy the rest of your weekend!

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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: The Brotherhood of the Rose, David Morrell
Currently watching: Stargate Atlantis
Currently listening to: Learned Ladies III: Miss Claudette, Philip Quast
My Plans for tomorrow: Studies, hopefully

Drastic Actions!

Well, I didn't get much response to my post on my websites and such, and since I've had a pretty rotten day today, I decided to get a bit drastic tonight!
I haven't finished going through everything (currently downloading the stuff from the websites I'm removing, to at least have some backup), but I have decided what will stay and what will go! :) I will make a separate webpage with the URL to all my websites that are current and active, when I've finished everything - naturally you will get the link here, so you can have everything in one place.

So far though, it looks like ending up like this:
Blogs:

• Another Day - Another Destiny
• Ytterligare ett försök - version 2.0 (Swedish)
• Att leva med social fobi (Swedish)
• Stargate SG-1 (will have a new look and a new URL)

Forums:

• The World of 007 (looks like the activity might pick up there now, so I'm keeping it for a while at least)
• Possibly a Forum connected to my Flying Doctors site

Websites:

• Jessica's Flying Doctors Page (will go through a make-over and a move to a new URL first)

That's it!! I've removed a number of blogs, will close at least two websites and have deleted two forums ... yup, I'd say that qualifies for a drastic evening, wouldn't you?
Still, websites and such are supposed to be fun, right? Mine was only causing me stress and trouble and problems, so no use in keeping them, right?! :)

Oh yeah, I downloaded this really cool digi.scrap-kit earlier, and found out it would work very well for graphics! :) What do you think?





Like I've said, I've had a pretty rotten day today, but I hope it was a temporary set-back and that I can be back-on-track tomorrow again! :)

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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: The Brotherhood of the Rose (David Morrell)
Currently watching: The Simpsons
Currently listening to: Bring Him Home, Les Misérables 10th Anniversary Concert
My Plans for tomorrow: Very confusing, no idea!

1978 - 2008

Wow ... 30 years old! Quite amazing, huh?! In some ways I don't feel even close to being 30 years old, and in other ways I feel I passed 30 a loooong way back! Very confusing! :)





This day has in many ways been very confusing too! I did take it quite easy this morning, considering the fact that I didn't fall aslepp until some time after 2 a.m. *yawn*
We had the introduction of one of the courses I will take, unfortunately I don't have the English translation for it yet - the detailed information on the course isn't avaliable online yet (great timing, since it started TODAY!) ... but it's basically Bible studies, with a focus on interpretations. When I first arrived at Uni, a fried I've taken a few courses came over, she'd heard there had been a celebration for me yesterday so she wanted to congratulate me - very sweet!!! I didn't stay at Uni more than about 3 hours, but unfortunately a couple of not-so-great-at-all incidents occured ... at least one of them beeing of the really-not-so-great kind ... more catastrophic ... I'm trying to deal with it because there's absolutely nothing I can do about it - but it really, really, really does bother me.

When I came home I went to do some grocery shopping, and managed to run into one of the women I "worked" with when I was on sick-leave, before I got back to studying full-time! She's hardly EVER even in my town, so I was quite surprised to see her - and happy!!!!! I hadn't seen her in ... about six months I think, so it was really really nice!!

I figured I'd be able to relax a little when I got home ... but two florists called and said they had flowers to deliver, one bouquet from my Mom, and one from my Dad and his family - *THANK YOU*! Aren't they absolutely gorgeous!!!!





Things have been very up and down today, so I'm mostly feeling confused! Some things have been really wonderful and great, and other have been just terrible! Unfortunately I'm really tired now, and should do SO much - but right now, I'm actually prioritizing my diary! I don't think I'll be able to cope with this semester if I'm not really up-to-date there and can use it a lot ... unfortunately I've fallen a bit behind, so I reckon it'll take a number of hours before I feel good about that ...
Speaking of which, that's what I'll do now! :)

Take care - and a very special thank you for all my birthday greetings (several on Facebook, that I did not expect!!), birthday cards, flowers and presents!!! I'm really greatful! :)

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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: [Should be reading] the Bible
Currently watching: Latest episode of Stargate SG-1 on TV6
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: Hebrew lecture, Old Testament lecture, studies, cleaning

Princess For A Day!

Yes, the ugly duckling actually got to be princess for a day!!
My friends Sara and Johanna had organized the whole day yesterday for me, and it was just ... amazing!!! I could never in my life have anticipated anything like that, and it was without a doubt one of the more memorable days of my life!!

They met me at the trains at about noon, and first we went to 'Dunkers Kulturhus', a museum located just by the waterside, where they had lots of cool exhibitions! I had never been there before, so it was quite exciting. Especially one exhibit about a Swedish designer called Stig Lindberg was really good, and there was also a very cool show about the town's history!

After that we went to Sara's apartment, she'd made yummiest cheesecake - with white chocolate!! - and we drank ... champage ... *yikes!* :) I also got a lovely birthday present, which turned out to be a beautiful handbag!! I LOVE bags, so that was really a perfect gift!!!!!



It was really wonderful, and after we were done eating cheesecake, Sara sneaked off leaving me and Johanna talking. After a while Sara came back, and it turned out they had planned a 'home-spa' for me - with a real bubblebath, magazines to read, candles the bathroom ... AMAZING!!! I don't have a bathtub (only shower), and I don't know when I took a bath last time! They were going to prepare dinner, so I had plenty of time to really relax and enjoy myself - which I truly did! The timing couldn't have been better either, I coped with the oral exam, I've left that course behind me, and I'm starting a rough semester today, so what better timing than to be able to completely relax!!

When I managed to drag myself out of there, Johanna and Sara had prepared most of dinner, but aparently it wasn't dinner time just yet! They had something else planned first, which turned out to be make-overs!!!! Johanna would do all of our make-ups, and Sara would fix our hair!!! Sooo cool!! The ugly duckling above is really true regarding me (though I have some serious doubts about the swan-part!!), and I'm not at all into make-up and stuff like that - so this was truly educational - it was a wonderful experience!!! We all turned out really great, I think - even though I have a hard time saying that about myself!

Right before dinner, I got another present!! This time it was two gorgeous shirts to wear ... but we were all a bit nervous about that, I think! It's always terrible difficult to buy clothes for somebody else, and I happen to be supersensitive about my weight ... I tried them on, and they were gorgeous!!! I got sooo many compliments (and I have such a hard time accepting them, unfortunately), and I think it worked out too!! I will have to loose some kilos before I feel totally comfortable with them, but they were really wonderful (and it's given me another motivation factor to really loose weight!)!!!
Dinner was two LOVLEY pies and nice crispy sallad! As usual, I ate tooooooo much, but it was SOOO good! (So much for loosing weight, yeah, right!! *lol*) We sat and talked a lot afterwards, and it was a fantastic evening! I'm really, really comfortable around Sara and Johanna and I totally feel I can trust them - I think we all exchanged some 'secrets' yesterday, and I'm usually very sensitive about who I tell what - but I really feel I can trust them completely!!!





All in all, this was such a GREAT day I really lack the words to describe it!!!
THANK YOU SO MUCH, Sara and Johanna! (I usually don't like birthdays very much, but this was a really wonderful one!!!)

Websites, Forums and Blogs!

Since I am about to start the most demanding semester I've ever gone through on Monday, I figured this was as good a time as any to try to figure out what to do about all my websites, blogs and forums - because I seem to have a ton of them and I have no idea what to do with them! (Currently mostly thinking I'll delete everything except this blog, but that might be a tad too drastic ...)

I'd really like to hear my visitors opinion on this, wether you visit any of my blogs/websites/forums and in that case which ones, if you want me to keep some in particular or if you don't really care which! ;) Comments are usually rather scarce here, but I want to point out that I'm really giving you a chance to say what you think here ... otherwise I'll just decide on my own! :)
Some things regarding this I already KNOW, so I will list them here (they are non-negotiable!), but with regards to everything else, I really welcome your opinion!

Okay, this is what I really know:

• This blog - Another Day Another Destiny - will stay in its current form! It seems to be getting visitors and I'm happy with the way it's working now.
• I will also keep my Swedish blogs Ytterligare ett försök - verison 2.0 (which hasn't officially even started yet!) and Att Leva Med Social Fobi.
  
• My Stargate SG-1 blog will move to a new location and undergo some changes, but will stay and will hopefully be updated on a regular basis.
• Jessica's Flying Doctors Page will move to a location as well as get a new layout, and I will also start up a Flying Doctors Forum to replace the crappy Bravenet forum that currently exists.

That's what I've decided so far ... but there's lots more to decide upon! What is left of all my "projects" (and I appreciate your thoughts and comments on these ...) are:

• Zorro: Master of the House - Zorro's Swedish blog
• Tänkvärt - my Swedish blog with lyrics, poems and quotes
• ~Jessica: TV, Film och Annat Smått och Gott~ - TV, movies, books-blog
• Les Misérables: Beyond the Barricade - my Les Misérables blog
• The ABC Café - My Les Misérables Forum
• ~*~ Carpe Diem ~*~ - My 'general' forum
• The World of 007 - My James Bond forum
• Jessica & Zorro's Website - my personal website
• One Day More! - My Les Misérables Website (currently down)

I'm hoping to reach a decision about this fairly soon - so comments are very much appreciated! Yes, I'll stop nagging you know, sorry! :)
Hope you're all having a great Saturday!

I Did It - I Did It!

Today was 'the big day'!! My huge oral exam ...
I have written an entry in my Swedish blog - Att leva med social fobi already, so for those of you who read Swedish, you can check it out.

But what can I say about this day? It's been very long and very tiresome and really good, and not so good and fantastic and a bit sad and stressful and great and filled with anxiety. Yeah, that pretty much describes it ... and you don't have to tell me that I am confused, because I already know I am! *lol*

Everything today has turned out pretty much perfect - except one thing. Right now, I'm very emotional, so I have a bit hard letting go of this 'one thing', even though I know I should be on top of the world after this day. I'll try to make a short explanation! (I'm really tired, so I might come back and discuss this further later on)

I passed my course, which is the first news to give - YESSSSS!!! It feels wonderful to have passed and to be able to put this course behind me now!! Also, a lot surrounding the exam - and part of the exam itself worked out better than expected. I got to talk a lot to our teacher, which felt really good. I'm not in any way planning to be his best friend or anything, but any contact with any one within the Department is really great!! Also, I think I did cope with the whole examination-situation is a good way. I was feeling pretty awful, with rather high anxiety levels (about 7-7.5 on a 1-10-scale) for the entire time, which was about three hours, but I did go through with it, right? One thing there though ... which I don't feel good about. Aparently I was one single little question from getting VG (the high grade)!!! He asked me a question, and I recognized what he asked about, I knew the circumstances around it, but for the life of me, I could not produce the answer he wanted - I completely froze up!!! And he told me that's what made the difference, had I answered that question, I would have gotten VG ... and that kinda hurts actually!! I also feel that since it was an oral exam, couldn't he have asked me a few other questions? If I'd shown I knew them, maybe that would have been enough?!? But I guess not ... And that feels rough ... since this was such an extensive course, it feels like getting a VG would have meant a lot, and now knowing that it was because one question ... yeah, I guess you can imagine how that feels ....

I will try to put that behind me, and be happy about passing the course, and also be very happy about handling the situations the way I did, because I'm really satisfied with that ... and I'm also glad to have established this contact with the teacher!

So all in all, this was a good day - even though I suspect it will be a while before I can let go of that one particular question! :)
Now I'm completely enjoying staying up late and doing what I want, and knowing that I don't have to get up at 5 a.m. tomorrow!!!!!!!!

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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Deception Point, Dan Brown
Currently watching: The Felloship of the Ring, cast commentary
Currently listening to: Förlorad igen, Nicklas Strömstedt
My Plans for tomorrow: Relaxing, visiting a friend