Here We Go Again!

I had thought things were about to start turning around for the better ... how wrong I was!
This week has been pretty much a terror, but I'm trying to implement a new way of thinking ... again ...

I don't mean to sound totally melodramatic, but fact remains, I don't feel good that often these days. So I figure I should turn my thinking around. Instead of always hoping that things will improve, struggling to get things to work out etc I should just let it go. I mean, bad things happen to me no matter what I do, so why should I make such a big deal over it! If bad things will continue to happen to me no matter what I do, than I can't go beating myself up over the fact that bad things happen to me. I just have to accept that bad things happen to me, that's the way it is ... I don't mean stop struggling or anything like that, I just mean - don't put any emotion into it! Don't get your hopes up, or constantly think 'If I can just get THIS to work, this & that will work out' ...
I should just work like crazy with my life, but not be surprised or upset when it all crashes! Because history tells me it will crash in regular intervals, I just have to deal with that.

Not the funniest entry - sorry about that - I have a feeling it was a rather confusing entry as well - sorry about that too! Guess I am rather confused at the moment ...


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