Thursday, 6 May 2010

Returning and Leaving

I think I have made somewhat of a comeback in the blog this week, even though I haven't updated it every day.
This week has been VERY intense and I'm looking at some intense days ahead as well. Therefore I wanted to let you know, it might be a while before I update again! I'm starting to gain interest in the blog again, so I'm hoping this intensity won't make me skip it entirely again - but I might not be very regular either ... let's see how it goes, shall we?

Sorry about the shortness of the entry, I'm at Uni and I need to get quite a few things done before showing up at an OT lecture at 1 (which is in 1 hour 45 minutes!) ...

Take care!

Tuesday, 4 May 2010

Ups and Downs

I'm feeling generally very confused right now, as some things seems to be really good and others feel just awful.
Sunday was a baaaad day - no need to go into details there, I'd rather just forget all about it.
Yesterday was ... confusing ... The morning wasn't so great, I didn't sleep well and things just didn't feel right. I went into Uni around 11 o'clock and started feeling better, I met some nice friends and it felt good to be back at the Department again.
I went to an OT lecture (Isa 7:10-17 - very exciting!) and afterwards we had a mentor meeting. I don't think it was the best one yet, but it was okay and it felt good to hang out with the OT students again!

When I got home I had received an email. I have been dreading this particular email for quite a while now, as I had the distinct feeling it would make things a lot more complicated than they already are! And I was right! The only problem was, things became more complicated in a way I had not in my life anticipated! *sigh* This pretty much drained my energy completely last night - which isn't so good as I basically have to study 24/7 now!!

I didn't sleep well tonight either, and I've been thinking and thinking and thinking and thinking - and I think I have come up "sort-of" a plan - though I don't know if it's going to work out! I went to Uni early, I was here at 8 o'clock, and I finished the NT book I'm currently reading. Now I'm parked in the library, I have replied to the "dreaded email" (and feeling even more nervous now!!), and now I'm going to move on to the NT article I'm supposed to read. I hope to get through it fairly quickly (it's in Swedish - YAY!!!) and hopefully I can get started on writing the paper I'm supposed to do.
At 1 o'clock there's another OT lecture (this time, Isa 40:1-11), and after that I'm heading home, doing some shopping first.

I'm still quite determined to make May a good month, but I'm quickly realizing I'm probably facing the most difficult and most intense weeks of my life right now ... and that does make me a bit nervous!!

Saturday, 1 May 2010

Quite Determined!

I am quite determined to make May the best month of 2010 so far! There are some insecurities - that I cannot do anything about myself - but I'm really going to try and make things work out better than they have before.
Granted, some of the stuff (most of it??) that's been happening so far this year has been out of my control, but I also know there are a lot of things I could have handled differently ... so at least I'm going to make an effort at making this a GOOD month and ending the semester with as much optimism as I can!

Basically, things have just been going on and on and on here ... I had an oral exam on the Gospel of Mark the other week, but unfortunately I didn't do so well ...:( I still haven't gotten a grade on it, because the course involves a written part (that I'm doing right now) as well - but I have a feeling it wasn't exactly the best exam I had. Basically, it was the Greek text and a commentary, and I have gotten used to "my" Old Testament professor, I pretty much knows what he finds important, what he likes to discuss etc. so I took the same study approach to this exam - with another teacher. My mistake!! The text he asked me about was pretty much the text I had paid the least attention to .. *sigh* I guess I will pass - at least I hope so - but I don't think there's any chance of a higher grade ...:(

My Dad is still not doing well and of course that is something I think about! They still haven't given him a proper diagnosis, again proving my complete distrust in the Swedish Medical Care (sorry if anyone happens to work there, I know there are exceptions, but I haven't had that many positive experiences when it comes to Health Care ...), and apparently the medication he's been getting hasn't worked at all ... *sigh*
I'm planning a trip to visit him and his family - and my Mum - in about 3 weeks, and I'm very much looking forward to that. I left right after New Year's, so it's been ages since I saw them!

Basically things haven't been that great lately, and I haven't felt that great, which is why I've had no energy whatsoever for this blog. Now I am determined to try to change whatever I can change at least, and hopefully that will mean a more active blog as well! :)
Today I've mostly been catching up on domestic chores, I've fallen so much behind there. Still got some stuff left for tomorrow, but I'm also hoping to get pretty much done on the written part of my New Testament exam tomorrow, so I can finish it during the start of next week and hand it in.

Take care!