Saturday, 27 February 2010

Spring Is Here!

Finally spring seems to be on its way, and that seems like a suitable time to try to bring my blog back to life again!
Things have been very confusing lately, but I will make an honest attempt at bringing it back now, let's hope it will work out!

This entry will mostly be a catching-up entry, on everything that's been going on lately - I have a feeling it will be quite long, so credit to those of you who will get through all of it! :)

My Accident

Well, I thought I'd start with what's mostly on my mind at the moment!
Last Saturday (a week ago), I was boiling an egg, was about to pour the boiling water in the sink, when I almost stumbled on Zorro! I managed to get him out of the way but spilled some of the water on my foot! Not Nice!!
It hurt a lot - duh!! - but I didn't think it'd be such a big deal, I tried to tend to it myself ... but I heard from a lot of people that burns are tricky and on Tuesday morning I called the local Health Centre. I talked to a nurse who wanted me to come in straight away - yikes!! It wasn't easy, especially with my pretty severe fright of hospitals and doctors! But at least I got there ... A nurse looked at it first and said it looked okay, not infected, but she wanted a doctor to take a look at it before she did anything.
Interestingly enough, the doctor I met was the one that put me on sick leave the first time, in February 2002, and gave me the diagnosis Social Phobia!!! Sometimes the world really IS small! :)
She agreed with the nurse, and the bandaged and dressed the wound, and I was going to come back on Wednesday!
So I did. And met a new nurse! She told me it looked fine - though it sure didn't look that way to me!!! - and not infected. She redressed the wound and gave me a new time on Friday!

I was back yesterday afternoon, with yet another nurse. She really was not good ... she was quit hysterical and didn't give me any clear information at all. She also said that the way I had had the wound dressed before was not good, so she would do it another way - which got me a little nervous. She kept touching the wound, adding creams and gels and whatnot, and when I flinched - because it hurt, a lot!! - she became quite surprised and said it wasn't supposed to hurt at all!!! Eh, what?!?!? I'm missing the first layer of skin on my foot, she's in there poking and it's not supposed to hurt??!?! "I think I speak for everyone here when I say, HUH?!?"
Anyway, she dressed it, and gave me new appointments for Monday and Wednesday, told me to rest as much as possible and sent me home.
And to be honest, I've been in more pain since I came from her than I have the entire time since I burned myself! That can't be good, right?! She really scared me with talks of infections and emergencies and God knows what ... I know I probably should pay too much attention to what she's saying, since she was just weird - but it's hard not to worry - this is a damn inconvenience for me, and I want it to heal as quickly as possible, without any complications!!! I have decided to wait until Monday, when I'm going to meet yet another nurse - hopefully she's better than this one, and can answer some of my questions ... and hopefully it hasn't gotten worse, even though I'm in so much pain!

The Weather!

We're having almost spring weather now, so most of the snow has melted - YAY! The problem is that the weather has been more extreme up north, where my parents live and where we have our summerhouse ... they've had such amounts of snow, it's hard to even grasp it if you haven't seen it. I know my Dad and his partner has taken turns going to the summerhouse to try and save at least the roofs of the buildings we have - but it's still a touch-and-go situation!! They've been having warmer weather as well, it's good some of the snow is melting, but it also makes the snow a lot heavier which is not-so-good for the roofs - or the trees or anything else there! I think one of them will go there today to try and clear most of the roofs, then maybe the rest of the snow will just melt ...
I got some photos from ... I think it was last weekend ... when one of them was there ... It's incredible, I can't remember we ever having that much snow before!!!


Yeah ... right ...
My studies have not been going so well lately. In all honesty, a lot of other stuff has gotten in the way, mainly my "injury" of course, but there are some more personal issues that have taken up a lot of time and worry and effort as well. I'm struggling with my mandatory course (Religion, tradition and Communication), I have had a hard time managing that course, and I've not done it the way I was really supposed to, but I'm hoping I will be able to make some complementary assignments later on to at least complete it.
I did work a bit on my essays, but due to computer problems at the Department library I lost all the information I gathered, which made me loose interest a little bit.
I'm really hoping March will be a better month than February has been - on several levels, but practically everything that goes on in my life does affect my studies right now, since my semester is so intense right now!


Well, this is pretty much what is going on right now.
I am trying to get my studies to work, but I have to be honest and say that this whole mess with my foot is a problem. I'm more or less in constant pain, I have a hard time walking and have to use a crutch to support my foot - it's a mess on buses and trains! I know I can't just stay put in my coach until it heals up, but I do have a hard time focusing on my studies right now (and it's not only my foot, it's, like I said, other issues as well). I will try to work on being more focused, because I need to make this semester work out better than last one!!! Period!!

And hopefully I'll be able to keep the blog a little bit more alive from now on, at least I will try! :D
Take care!!

Monday, 8 February 2010

Fighting Spirit!

Lunch, 12.29 p.m.

I am desperately trying to find my inner fighting spirit right now, because I have a strong feeling I'm going to need it!
So far today I sat through a Greek/NT lecture, and felt a bit upset when I realized that I have to start putting some more effort into my Greek studies as well, if I'm going to cope with that course later on (as if I haven't gotten enough to do!).
I also got an email which wasn't great at all. Again no personal details - sorry! - but I had tried to prepare for certain things for quite a while, actually most of the weekend and this morning, I was up at 3 a.m. This email bascially changed it all and now I'm going to have to make new decisions and come up with new thoughts and ideas ...

I have tried to bounce back and I have planned this afternoon's SI/mentor meeting and made some notes from last week's meeting, and I have also studied a little for my master's thesis now. I am however, completely exahausted and I'm almost falling asleep in front of the computer screen. Not good!

Pretty soon I'm going to arrange for coffee for the SI-meeting, then it's an OT lecture 1-3 and right after that we have the meeting ... then I'm going home, stopping on the way at the Bank ...

I wish I had a bit more fighting spirit right now, but I'm mostly tired ... I know I really really really need to make this semester work, but at some point, I can't help asking myself how ...

I don't think I can take any more on Hittite treaties in comparison with Israel's covenant with YHWH, so I guess I should give up and try to get some other stuff done now.
Wish me luck!

Sunday, 7 February 2010

Big-Time Confusion!

Apologies for the lack of updates this week. Things have just spiralled and gotten worse and worse this week and I think I landed in some apathetic mental state yesterday!
Now I'm quickly realizing I can't stay there if I'm going to cope with this semester, so I'm hoping I will be able to make a comeback during the day today and hopefully I'll be able to start dealing with everything tomorrow ...

I'm sorry I'm being so very vague about everything, but to be honest, I don't really feel totally comfortable about sharing my most personal issues in a public blog... There are lots of things going on now that aren't so great - my study situation isn't the best, and I'm wondering whether or not to try and do something about that, the future seems mostly like a big black hole, which is a bit disconcerting ... I've run into some financial problems ... It seems like my Dad is really ill, though he won't tell me much about it, nor see a doctor, so that has me worried quite a bit.

I'm hoping I will be able to be more constructive during this week, addressing at least some of the problems that have been piling up and hopefully also be able to solve at least a few of them ...

I'm hoping for more updates during next week, if I can find a solution to some problems, I think it will be easier for me to write about them too - so fingers crossed, hey?! :)
I hope you all had a great weekend!!

Tuesday, 2 February 2010

Short Update!

Tuesday, 9.25 a.m.

I apologize for not making a proper update, but I'm feeling pretty stressed out. I'm at Uni with a million things to do - and it doesn't help that yesterday was totally crappy and today has started out the same way! :(
I know I have to cope and deal with the difficulties, and I think I will - but I don't have smile while doing it, do I?

Most of what feels bad right now is really private, so I hope you'll forgive me if I don't spill my guts in a public blog ... I just hope this will pass soon and things will feel a bit better ...

Well, I'd better get on with everything I should be doing, at this point, I wish I could split myself into three or four different pieces, maybe that way I'd have time to do everything I should do! :)

Take care!