Sunday, 8 April 2007

Happy Easter!

Yes, I know it's a little late, as we're nearly through Easter now, but the intention is still good, right? I hope you all have had and have a great Easter holiday!

Personally, I don't quite know what to say ... Generally speaking Easter has been really good, with some golden moments, but naturally that would be too good to be true, so there's been some really horrible moments as well ...

My Mum came down for a few days over Easter, and it was just wonderful to see her!! I had some hopes that my earlier depression would mysteriously disappear, since there was a break in the general routine with her coming, no lectures etc. It seemed to work out, I even managed to - sort of any way - handle a few distruptive incidents - but unforutnately the depression came back in a 100 miles per hour at the exact time my Mum's bus left ...
I always truly HATE good-byes but over the last few years I think I have learned to cope, I feel really bad, but it passes fairly quickly and I can get busy with other things ... did NOT work out this time! It's nearly two days since Mum left and it's still tearing me up inside. Now, that's not the whole truth, because there are lots of other stuff that are definately NOT good in my life right now, and I do know that I am in the middle of a depression, and that of course, makes things like good-byes even worse ...

Most things in my life are pretty bad right now, but to not get completely wrapped up in all the bad things I have to tell you at least one good thing that has happened (although with my depression I just keep telling myself that that good thing is so small and unimportant, it doesn't even matter that it is good ... isn't it FUN to be depressed?? *ironic smile*)
Anyway ...
The good news is that a while back I joined a forum called Admin's Retreat, where admins of forums meet, get advice and just hang out. They have a "Best Board of the Month" competition, and just for fun, I entered my James Bond Forum ... with Easter being the way it has, I didn't check it out until yesterday ... and I won!! *gasp* That was REALLY surprising, but I even got the banner to show it:

Therefore, also, some shameless promotions of my forums:



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