Saturday, 26 May 2007

New Phone!

First off, the good news! I've bought a new mobile phone! My old one has been acting a bit weird lately, so I've been checking up on some new ones. They are horrible expensive though, I found one I REALLY liked, a Nokia 6103, but it costs about 1500:- - 2000:- ( ~ $220-$300), which is quite a lot!
By chance, I checked the Swedish auction site Tradera, and to my big surprise I found one there for about 800:- (~$115), it was almost new and the seller would include it being sent by registered mail! I know it's still a lot of money, and I'm usually not exactly rich during the summertime, but I just couldn't help myself! *lol* So I bought it ....
I'll be transfering the money on Monday or Tuesday, but I hope I'll get it by the end of the week ....

This is about the only positive thing in my life at the moment though, becuase it seems this semester will end in the same way it has been the past few months, with me feeling terrible and everything being a huge mess.
I'm really struggling with myself over this, because I really HATE how things have become, and I feel terribly upset because of this ... and at the same time I try to convince myself not to be that upset, but instead focus 100% to pass the last exam, accept the fact that things are the way they are - and try to make some changes when the exam is over.
In short - everything is VERY confusing at the moment ....

To finish off, a digi-scrap and a graphic. Enjoy!



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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
Currently watching: Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring
Currently listening to: Master of the House - Les Misérables Israeli Radio Recording
My Plans for tomorrow: STUDIES

Thursday, 24 May 2007

Decisions, decisions!

Things are really getting to be very confusing at the moment...
I have a lot of decisions to make and in each and every one of them it feels like I loose no matter what I do. Not fun!
I know this is the last of this semester, it's only about two weeks to the final exam and I have to give my all to make a go of it. As usual it's not quite that simple though ...

This whole semester has been a huge great mess, and it's getting more and more aparent that the end of it will be the same! It seems like things are getting more and more confusing, and I'm sort of forced into making decisions I don't really want to make.
I guess what I am trying to say is that at the moment I really don't feel in control of my own life. There are always other issues and other people and other problems that in some way forces me to act and make choices I feel I have no control over. And that's a pretty awful feeling!

I have all the motivation in the world to try to change things after this semester, I have some plans of new approaches for the summer and at least now I'm feeling hopeful they will work out. But that still leaves these coming few weeks, and fact is, I need to get through them without everything collapsing!

Sorry about the not-so-fun blog entries of late, I hope that I can come back with more positive entries later on - although I have a feeling that will be after the exam is done ...

Take care!

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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Predikanten by Camilla Läckberg
Currently watching: Fellowship of the Ring, cast commentary
Currently listening to: nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: shopping/window-shopping, cleaning, studying.

Wednesday, 23 May 2007

Moodswings!

This is definately not a great period in my life. I don't feel comfortable going into detail about what is going on and what has happened, but I don't feel great at all!
At times, I think things are okay, I can sort of work according to a semi-new approach I have come up with for my current situation, and then it just suddenly turns completely around and I feel totally miserable! This is totally the wrong time for it as well, since there are only a few more weeks left of this semester, and I really need to try and cope during these weeks, and at least try to pass the last exam! Easier said than done, though ...

Can't really say that a lot has been happening here - apart from bad things - so I'm making this a short entry. No point in just repeating how terrible things feel right now! But I wanted to at least make an entry so you didn't think I'd abandoned my blog again!

I've just spent some time with Photoshop, and although I'm not happy with the result (so what else is new - I'm not happy with much at the moment!), I thought I'd share it here ...





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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: The Fellowship of the Ring (J.R.R. Tolkien)
Currently watching: The Fellowship of the Ring
Currently listening to: Come to my Garden - 'The Secret Garden'
My Plans for tomorrow: Group project for Uni.

Sunday, 20 May 2007

Slow Motion!

I don't really know why today has been so slow! Sure, I'm tired and worn out, after this intense week, but I still took it really easy yesterday, tried to catch up on some sleep etc ... but despite that, I've felt completely exhausted today!
Not much has been done unfortunately, so I don't really feel prepared for next week!
It's not that heavy, but things seem to pile up - lectures, meeting my mentor, working on group projects ... Guess I will be keeping busy after all, right?! :)

I did finish Patricia Cornwell's Blowfly this morning ... don't really know if I liked it or not! I mean, I do like the Scarpetta-books, and I like Patricia Cornwell, but this was definately not one of my favourites!
Have to say I'm not very fond of the changes she's making in the books. From the beginning, she always wrote in first person, as if Kay Scarpetta herself was telling the story, and she always wrote in imperfect, telling a story that had already happened. In The Last Precinct she changed it from imperfect to present, which I felt was very confusing! Normally when you read a book, you are told a story, here you somehow followed the story as it was happening: (not a real-quote, just an example): "I walk into the kitchen and pour myself a cup of coffee as I think about what happened last night." I somehow find it a little hard to read the story like that. I did sort of get used to it during The Last Precinct and the same technique is used in Blowfly too - only this time Cornwell writes in third-person, so it's no longer Scarpetta telling the story, or even being the main character. I can in a way understand the need for these changes, but I can't really say I like them ....
Blowfly was a good book, no doubt about that, but I couldn't help feeling the storyline was somewhat thin and a bit confusing - not really very believable at times (won't spell out exactly what I mean, since that would be a MAJOR spoiler) ... and the different use of the language was also something that I didn't quite like.
I'm anxious to get Trace and Predator to see what they are like too!

Finishing off with some digi-scraps I made earlier! Enjoy!




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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Isprinsessan by Camilla Läckberg
Currently watching: Fellowship of the Ring - Extended Version
Currently listening to: Totally Different Speices, Philip Quast
My Plans for tomorrow: Studies probably .... *sigh*

Saturday, 19 May 2007

Great Dinner ... With Unexpected Ending!

Yesterday I was invited to dinner by a girl I studied with last semester (S) - it was me and one more girl (J), we all studied together then, and J and I are taking the same courses this semster as well.
I was rather tired at after my trip, but I was very much looking forward to this, as I tend to get along great with these girls!

I met up with J at the train (which was late ) and together we walked to S ... uphill to say the least! About one week's exercise just in that walk (well, almost anyway!)!
It was great to see S again, I haven't seen her much this semester, and it was also nice to see her apartment!

We had YUMMY raspberry drinks first ... felt just like summer!! Especially since we were out on the balcony, sun shining, 6 floors up, overlooking the ocean! Gorgeous!!
Then time for yummy food as well - although I definately ate too much (why is it so difficult to stop eating when something tastes really good?? It's like your brain can't communicate and say you've had enough, you just keep on eating!!)! I also have a feeling I might have had a tad too much wine ... but I guess you are allowed to spoil yourself sometimes, right?! :)

We had a great time, chatting - checking out the CUTEST bunny-video ever on YouTube (S - could you please email me the link!??!?!?), looking at photos ... and, oh yeah ... laughing!! Definately a lot of laughter!!

We had two deserts as well - real luxury! The second desert is a bit of a 'secret', very unique and I was told I am one of the few who have been able to try it ... *proud* I have to say it is certainly unique and different, but it was really good!!! (the pic is of S and J showing me just how yummy it is!! *lol*)

After more laughing and chatting, we realized that mine and J's train were leaving at 12.27, so we started getting ready! Both of us felt we had plenty of time, there weren't that many people out etc. When J bought her ticket, it was marked 12.26, so we hurried downstairs to the train tracks - and the train was nowhere in sight!!
We checked and checked and checked ... and it became very aparent that the train had already left!! Which means it must have left BEFORE 12.27!!! Which is SO wrong!!! One thing is if you miss a train because you miscalculates time or something, but a train should never ever leave before schedule!!! *sigh*
Both me and J were pretty stunned, at first I don't think we really understood what had happened. We didn't know what to do ... this was the last train, the next one were due to leave at 6 a.m. I noticed I could catch a bus, but it wouldn't go until 2.30 a.m. - and what would J do??

We just stood staring for a while, than finally decided to go back to S and see if we could sleep there for a few hours and take the first train in the morning. We did not have the energy to go through the long walk uphill, and realized that a bus would leave in two minutes! We had to run like crazy, ignore traffic signals and shove our way to the bus stop, and luckily we just made it!! S was totally nice and fixed "beds" for us, so everything was ready when we arrived back there! (*thanks!!*) It took quite a while before I could sleep, it was probably after 2 a.m. and I had my alarm set at 5.15 so we would catch the train!

It was not nice to get up right after five - not being able to shower, or brush your teeth or anything ... *yucky* We didn't wake up S but pretty much sneaked out - and caught the 5.53-train ....

Zorro was really happy when I arrived home, and we've been sleeping on the coach on and off throughout the day today!
I haven't gotten much done today, but hopefully I'll be able to get a solid night's sleep tonight, so I can be more effective tomorrow!

To conclude this entry - it was really a wonderful dinner ... with an unexpected ending! :) :)


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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Blowfly by Patricia Cornwell
Currently watching: Live And Let Die
Currently listening to: Look Down (Les Misérables) - Korean Cast
My Plans for tomorrow: Unpack, clean up, study!

Friday, 18 May 2007

Very Intense Few Days!

Now I'm back with an update of a few very intense days!
It's been a great trip with some really wonderful moments, but I can't help but feeling completely exhausted now! I'm trying not to collapse completely, as I'm going off to dinner with a few friends from Uni tonight! I'm really looking forward to it, but I hope I don't fall asleep right in the middle of it!

TUESDAY
I think Tuesday was the worse, actually.
I left home at 6.45 a.m. and went to Uni for lectures at 8. That worked out, even though lectures have been a strain on me this whole semester, so I can't just shrug it off either. Back home by train, I was home at 11. Since this was going to be an ordeal for Zorro as well, I tried not to stress too much at home - but that of course resulted in me being very late, so I was really stressed out, and didn't know wether I'd gotten everything done or now. I managed to get Zorro packed at about 11.30, I was meeting my friend at Uni at 12 when her lecture finished. It took longer to drive than I thought, so I was a little late when I was closing in on Uni ... when of course I took two wrong turns!!! Now, I really knew the way I was planning on taking, but I guess I was totally nervous and stressed out. This is a fairly large city after all, so it's not just possible to make a U-turn and go back either ...
Finally I managed to pick up my friend and she gave me directions on how to get out of town first, then on the highway and then circling a bit to get to her appartment in another city!
At this time I already had a horrible headache, so I was dreading the rest of the day to say the least!!

We tried to get Zorro settled, and that actually worked out really good! I was nervous of course, but he seemed to respond really well to his new temporary home! That felt great for me, and I was able to leave my friend - and Zorro *sob* - at about 1.30 p.m. (I'd stayed almost an hour). I was unsure of the way back from my friends, it was a great deal of traffic in the middle of the city, but I saw signs to indicate the right way! I got on the highway all right - eventually - and in the wrong end of town, so I had to follow the highway around the whole town, which probably meant an extra 20-30 kilometers at least! *sigh*
At least I didn't take any wrong turns this time and I found my way back to the gas station where I'd rented the car without problem! The only problem was that pretty much everyone in the whole district decided to visit the gas station at that particular time! I had to wait forever to get help, and than it took forever to get everything settled, but there were no practical problems, which was a huge relief!

Than I could at least start to relax a little, since the rest of the trip really wasn't much up to me! I took a train first, then waited for my bus. I decided to get something to eat while I waited - and tried to do something about my headache. That didn't work though, because aparently there was going to be a huge soccer derby in that city the same night, tons of supporters shouting like crazy, policemen hovering everywhere - a mess!! On top of that, the bus I was going to take had been delayed in the Copenhagen customs, so it was over half an hour late!
It did arrive finally, and it wasn't a lot of people onboard, which was great, I could really try to relax! At least at first ....
I had gotten a seat quite near the driver and co-driver - big mistake! (Sit further back if you can help it, that's my advice!) The driver got a phonecall from another driver, who had gotten stuck in traffic due to some road work on the highway! There was a huge traffic jam and he'd been standing there for an hour, and adviced we'd take a detour passed this ... the co-driver didn't quite believe him and argued that we'd take the normal route, he didn't know anything about any road work etc. There was a huge debate until the last minute, because when we just arrived at the turn-off, we saw the huge traffic jam - so the bus made the turn at the last possible minute .... We got a bit delayed because of the detour, but I think we would have arrived even later had we been caught in the middle of the road work - so I guess it turned out all right anway!
Then came the next problem ... which was a lot less pleasant. It appeared one of the passengers had vomited in the bus toilet and refused to clean up, so they even had to lock in, because nobody could go in! The co-driver was in quite a state about it, and it turned out to be a big deal. I didn't much care about any of this, but since I had a severe headache and tried to sleep - this disturbed me quite a bit!
We arrived about 30-40 minutes late and then I had about 1½ to the next bus - so I tried to eat and drink and pop headache pills ... but the headache stuck! The next bus was actually early (!!) and it was very quiet, so I got quite a lot of sleep, which felt great ... the headache almost disappeared!
I arrived at about twenty past midnight and my Dad was there to pick me up!

WEDNESDAY
I was woken on Wednesday by my oldest little sister, M!! She'd really grown and she talks so much! It was wonderful to see her again!
My Dad had to work in the morning, and after a while, I took M shopping, while her Mum and my youngest sister, I, was at home preparing for the Christening. I think M had a good time, because I really tried to make it a fun trip for her! She usually accompanies her parents on shopping trips, but then it's all about getting the groceries as quickly as possible and nothing more. We went through the toy departments of each store and that was it!
About ten steps into the first store, M found a cute little toy cat, she immediately fell in love with! And I mean REALLY fall in love with! She's never gotten a lot of stuff in stores like that, so she's never demanding at all, or claiming that we should buy something, but she stood with the cat in her arms, looked up at him and wondered if we could get it? I feel strongly about children always getting everything they want, but at the same time I was very moved about the way she'd been taken by the cat! I told her she'd have to wait and see, and we could go back to the cat later. She accepted it right off, and we walked around. But every 3-4 minutes, she asked ... would be go back to the cat now? We did go back and I did buy it for her (and a baby rabbit for I, so it was fair!!)!! Just take a look at the picture - how can you say no to that?!?!??
We went around the mall for about 1½-2 hours and I think she really enjoyed it!

Back home for lunch and rest. M usually wants somebody to lie on the floor next to her bed when she's going to sleep - naturally that was my job! What happened was that both M and me fell asleep and slept for two solid hours!!! :)

When we got up, me and Dad and M went to a park in town, where they keep some farm animals, like cows, sheep, rabbits etc. M had a wonderful time, they had a very young calf and lots of wonderful lambs ... so cute!!!

When M had gotten to bed, young I was awake for a little while, so I got to spend some time with her as well, before it was time to put her to bed as well! Is she cute or what?!?
She can scream like an opera singer if she puts her mind to it, but when she's calm and lauging and "talking", she's just about the cutest thing you've ever seen! :)



THURSDAY
Thursday was also very intense! We got up pretty early and had time for some playing time with M before we got ready for the Christening.
It was a great ceremony at Church, as it was just the Christening and nothing else, so it was very familiar and wonderful! Apart from us, M's and I's grandparents and aunt (with boyfriend) and uncle (with girlfriend) came. M is quite familiar with the Church, she's been going to different child-play groups there, and she was involved in the ceremony, helping the priest to ring the church bells, helping her mother to pour water etc! Adorable!
And I was really good, she hardly said anything during the ceremony, and when they were playing and singing she kept laughing and laughing!
The photo of all three of us is taken right before we were leaving for Chruch!

We went back home after the ceremony and ate a little, before it was time for me to say Good bye for now, and head off. The trip south went really well, but it was rather tiresome to be all alone! I had to go to pick up Zorro first as well, before I could go home! That worked very smoothly though, and it seemed things with Zorro had worked out quite well. Despite that I wasn't home until 10 p.m. and had driven about 600-650 kilometres that afternoon!


As you can imagine, I am very tired now - I didn't sleep much tonight because Zorro was so happy to be home, he kept jumping up and down on the bed the entire night! :)
Now I'm trying to relax, unpack and get ready for tonight!

-- Oh, and before I forget! I saw that my 3000th visitor had found his/her way to my blog while I was away! Thank you sooo much for visitng my blog! :) --

A few more cute kid-photos before I sign off! (I didn't get that many photos since things were so intense ... will be more during the summer!)





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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Blowfly by Patricia Cornwell
Currently watching: Inspector Lynley - A Cry For Justice
Currently listening to: Stars (Les Misérables) - Cornell John
My Plans for tomorrow: SLEEP ... and studies! :)

Tuesday, 15 May 2007

Good Bye For Now!

A super-short mini-post saying Good-bye for now!
Luckily I got up in time this morning, so I don't have to rush like crazy ... although I'm actually looking forward to this day ending!!
Lots of intense things going on today, the worse by far will be leaving Zorro! I guess it's because of me not feeling the best either, then I have a hard time coping with the thought of "abandoning him" (even though I know I'm not, I bet that's what he's gonna feel!) ... Ah well ... nothing I can do to change it now, right?!

I'll be back late Thursday night, but I don't think you can expect a blog entry then, because I'll probably be more dead than alive, and I definately want to spend as much time as possible with Zorro ... hopefully I'll be able to post on my trip sometime during Friday!

I hope you have a great time until then!
Take care!!



Monday, 14 May 2007

Complete Confusion!

Today has been okay, no doubt about that, but I still don't feel the best right now!
It was a rather intense day today, lots of stuff happening and lots of nervous moments, and yet I know that tomorrow will be a lot more demanding!!
Right now, I'm more confused than anything ... I have a million things in my head, and I can't make heads or tails of any of them! I know there are tons of stuff to be done, but I don't get around to doing them, or I realize I can't do them until tomorrow ... and ... well, let's just say everything is a big mess at the moment!
I also feel stressed out, because I have the strongest feeling I have forgotten a number of things, but I still can't be focused enough to remember any of it! *sigh*

Sorry about the "depressing" entry, I'm not really feeling down, I'm just feeling very confused! I just hope everything will work out during the next 18-20 hours ...

Well, to try and look at the "bright" side of things; today has mostly worked out! One incident at Uni wasn't exactly great, but I don't think I could have done anything to make it better, so I guess I'm gonna have to live with that! And the rest of the time at Uni was pretty good ...
And I managed to collect the rental car without too much hassle too - even though the clerk was somewhat rude ... and I couldn't get the stupid gear in reverse, so I hardly made it out of the parking lot *lol*. Lucky I can laugh about it now, right?! :)

I'll try to pull myself together now, and get a few more things done before I turn in ... I do hope to find the time to make a short Good-bye note here tomorrow morning, but I won't guarantee it! It all depends on how much I get done, how much sleep I'll get etc.
I think the worst right now is thinking about Zorro!! I know my friend is really wonderful, she loves cats and all that, but it still feels like a knife in my heart knowing I have to leave Zorro tomorrow ...


Oh, by the way - I just thought of something.
I thought I would include a picture of my and my youngest sister from my last visit, which was in late January!
Somehow I have a feeling I will come back with somewhat different pictures ... :)



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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Blowfly by Patricia Cornwell
Currently watching: The Saint - The Fictionmakers
Currently listening to: Spring Music - from 'The Secret Garden'
My Plans for tomorrow: Lectures, leaving Zorro *sob*, trip to my Dad's!

Sunday, 13 May 2007

Preparing For Next Week!

Today has mostly been spent preparing for next week, which will be intense to say the least!! To give you a short summary:
Monday: Lectures 12-2, collect rental car at 3, the afternoon will be filled with studies, packing and last minute preparations.
Tuesday: Lectures 8-10, home, pick up Zorro (with the rental car), pick up a friend, settle Zorro at her apartment, return the rental car, train and bus up north to my Dad's (arriving at about half past midnight).
Wednesday: Full steam ahead with my young sisters!
Thursday: Christening at noon, than back home for some photographing, driving my Mum's car to pick up Zorro (about 7-8 hours drive), then home.
Friday: Dinner with two friends.

So it will definately take both practical and emotional preparation to get this week to work out! I really look forward to seeing my sisters again of course, I haven't seen them since January (when my youngest sister was only a week old!!), but it will definately be a very intense week.

Don't have that much else to write about, I've spent most of today cleaning and studying - and watching the last of the Ice Hockey World Championships!
Not even a medal for Sweden (who lost the game for third place to Russia)
And of course a big congratulations to Canada who won!! (although I cheered for Finland)

Take care guys!

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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Blowfly by Patricia Cornwell
Currently watching: Wallander - Afrikanen
Currently listening to: ----
My Plans for tomorrow: Lectures, studying, cleaning, packing ...

Saturday, 12 May 2007

Grumpy!

myspace layouts, myspace codes, glitter graphics Yes, I'm definately in a grumpy mood today!! Nothing has really worked out at all today, starting early this morning when - no, no bird this time!! - I woke up with a severe headache - third day in a row ... *sigh*
This pretty much limits my ability to do anything, and right now, I need to do so much!!
At least the headache subsided a little - but it has come and gone throughout the day! I managed to do some shopping, and I have started to clean up the apartment, but it's certainly been going in slow-motion today, that's for sure ... And I have tons to do before next week starts, so I'm already beginning to dread tomorrow ...

At about lunch-time I watched the first Ice Hockey Semi-Finals between Russia and Finland - well, I didn't watch it closely, but it was certainly on! Quite a good game actually, though some foul play at times. Finland won - fairly - in sudden death, 2-1, and went on to the finals.
Tonight it was time for the second semi-final between Canada and Sweden ... NOT a good game, that's for sure!! I don't know what had happened in the Swedish team but they hardly seemed to have any fighting spirit at all! Okay, after the first period, it was 3-0 to Canada, but they still had 40 minutes to even the score ... it ended up being 4-1 - so Sweden are playing for third place against Russia tomorrow, and Canada and Finland will meet in the finals ...
I found out that you could chat to one of the commentators online after the game, I've never been into that sort of thing before but I thought it would be cool to check it out ... I even sent in a question - but of course my question were never answered before they closed the chat (though several other - *stupid* - questions were answered ... *sigh*

Definately not been my day today, that's for sure! Guess I'd better get to bed early and hope tomorrow will be better!
Good night!

Edit: *weirdness* I have tried editing this post a number of times, but aparently something is wrong (so what else is new with my life? *sigh*) and the '0 COMMENTS' where you're supposed to click if you want to comment my post, has mysteriously disappeared. Sorry about this, seems there's nothing I can do about it ... Hopefully, it will mysteriously re-appear next time I post ....



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