Today I have spent mostly trying to relax, but also trying to prepare for what is about to start! I had a long session with my diary this morning, and those thoughts have been with me throughout the day.
I have very mixed feelings about this upcoming semester, so it isn't easy to know what to focus on, or how to deal with my anxiety for it. I am very nervous and I do have anxiety, that thus far varies quite a bit, but is still present. I know this is a very demanding course, and you need to study a lot - but I am very motivated in my studies now, so I don't think that will be a big problem. However, we do have lectures every single week-day (Monday through Friday) for at least the first 8 weeks (and then some) ... and I know I sometimes have a hard time coping with that. If I experience some difficulties or mood-swings, I can't operate on all cylinders, and I need some "time off" - and now all of a sudden, that's not allowed!
Because I also know that missing lectures - even one missed lecture - on this course (at least during the first 3-4 weeks) will most likely prove fatal for me. That's what happened the first time I took Hebrew (now I'm taking Greek, the courses are pretty similar) - and that ended up being a total disaster! But just knowing that I can't miss lectures, make my anxiety levels rise!
I also know I need to cope with preparing a lot of stuff for every day, and most likely the concept of "reading-translating-analyzing" every day, in front of the group, will be used - which is another cause for worry.
Then, on the other hand, I actually do feel quite confident about the future! I know I have stuff I need to work with, and things I'm coping badly with - but after having completely last semester the way I did, I actually got some confidence in my studies, and a self esteem boost. I was active pretty much every day for the entire semester (with a few downturns of course), and I performed really well, I got the high grade, VG, for most of my exams, and I even took an unoffical course that I didn't need to - and did really well there as well. And not only that, the social arena worked out really nice, I found my place in most groups - and I met a new a friend (which doesn't happen that often!!) - and in the Department, which also helps me find my confidence!
In conclusion: Major confusion! *lol*
Still, at least I'm not feeling completely devastated, and I guess that's the main thing. I think I can expect both good and bad things from this semester, but what I am really truly hoping for, is that I can cope with it. By that I don't mean that everything should simply magically work out, but that I am also able to cope with the bad things, so that I don't get depressed, or feel like I need to skip lectures, stay home, and start feeling alienated again. That will take a lot of work, of course, because I will no doubt run into problems along the way - but fingers crossed, I will cope! :)
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Val McDermid
Currently watching: Stargate SG-1, season 8
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: Introduction to New Testament Greek, meet with "CSN", studies ...
Sunday, 31 August 2008
Saturday, 30 August 2008
Another Blog Award! :)
Thank you so much Annika, for giving me another award! :)
I don't have the energy to do a proper "forward" of this blog award, but spontaneously I want to give it to:
I don't have the energy to do a proper "forward" of this blog award, but spontaneously I want to give it to:
Friday, 29 August 2008
A Big Sister Moment!
Not much has happened today - but I had to write and share a "Big Sister Moment" with you!
I sent a package to my Dad and his family yesterday, a few letter and small gifts for the girl ... mostly a "thank-you-for-this-summer" thing. Today I got a phonecall, and I figured it was "M" (the older one) as she tends to want to call every now and again!
But it was my younger sister, "I", who called!!! First time ever!!! At first I didn't understand, as she didn't really "speak", mostly made noises in the phone, but it was really her!! She's gotten sooooo big!! :) Aparently everybody had gotten excited about the package and wanted to call me - and "I" had carried the phone around for 20 minutes before my Dad found a moment to call me! *feeling happy*
I can't believe how time flies!!! I mean, I know "I" is growing up too, but she's always been the baby, this is a major break-through for her! I'm trying to remember when "M" called me like that for the first time! I don't really remember ... well, I do remember the first time she really talked to me, as in talking and describing something - that was during the spring of 2007, when "M" was about 2 years and 8 months (give and take some months here and there) - and "I" is 1 year 7½ months now ... But I don't remember the first time"M" just listened in the phone, not saying much herself ...
Anyway, that was a lovely conversation, that's for sure!
The last of my Tradera-auctions this time ended today as well - I did quite well this time - yay! One buyer actually bought 37 (!!!!) of my Mary-Kate & Ashley Olsen-auctions - yikes!! I have no idea how to managed shipping them, but I do have the weekend to try to figure it out! And all the money I can get are very welcome indeed! :)
I hope I can get more auctins up during the weekend - or at least later on! I really need to get rid of a lot of stuff, and like I said, any money coming in are more than welcome! :)
Hope you all will have a lovely weekend!
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Digital Fortress, Dan Brown
Currently watching: Stargate SG-1 (season 7)
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow:No idea!
I sent a package to my Dad and his family yesterday, a few letter and small gifts for the girl ... mostly a "thank-you-for-this-summer" thing. Today I got a phonecall, and I figured it was "M" (the older one) as she tends to want to call every now and again!
But it was my younger sister, "I", who called!!! First time ever!!! At first I didn't understand, as she didn't really "speak", mostly made noises in the phone, but it was really her!! She's gotten sooooo big!! :) Aparently everybody had gotten excited about the package and wanted to call me - and "I" had carried the phone around for 20 minutes before my Dad found a moment to call me! *feeling happy*
I can't believe how time flies!!! I mean, I know "I" is growing up too, but she's always been the baby, this is a major break-through for her! I'm trying to remember when "M" called me like that for the first time! I don't really remember ... well, I do remember the first time she really talked to me, as in talking and describing something - that was during the spring of 2007, when "M" was about 2 years and 8 months (give and take some months here and there) - and "I" is 1 year 7½ months now ... But I don't remember the first time"M" just listened in the phone, not saying much herself ...
Anyway, that was a lovely conversation, that's for sure!
The last of my Tradera-auctions this time ended today as well - I did quite well this time - yay! One buyer actually bought 37 (!!!!) of my Mary-Kate & Ashley Olsen-auctions - yikes!! I have no idea how to managed shipping them, but I do have the weekend to try to figure it out! And all the money I can get are very welcome indeed! :)
I hope I can get more auctins up during the weekend - or at least later on! I really need to get rid of a lot of stuff, and like I said, any money coming in are more than welcome! :)
Hope you all will have a lovely weekend!
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Digital Fortress, Dan Brown
Currently watching: Stargate SG-1 (season 7)
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow:No idea!
Taking A Break!
After a very rough night indeed, I've spent the morning trying to come up with some decisions regarding my life - and since I'm completely exhausted, have a bad headache and Zorro has been completely insane, that wasn't easy!
The last week or so haven't been great for me, I haven't been feeling very well, and I haven't gotten things done, in the way I had hoped, for various reason - some valid, some not, I guess. This has left me with a constant bad feeling about what I should have done and should do and what I haven't done.
So now I've decided something. I can't say for sure wether it's the right decision or not - but you often only know that after the fact anyway, so I'm gonna go with my decision anyway.
I've decided to take a break. I have three days, including today, before I'm starting a new semester, which I know will be very demanding. While I will not take as many courses as I did last semester, I will also miss out on some of the advantages I had last semester, so I'm definately counting with this one being equally difficult, if not worse! So, these last three days I will spend on me! I won't do anything I don't want to do, period! I will try to take advantage of these last few days of freedom (as I probably won't have any more until next summer or something!), and really enjoy myself! I will also try to not feel bad about things that aren't getting done ... I'm an expert on beating myself up for not coping or not being organized and efficient, but if I do that, the whole idea of enjoying these days will be lost, right?!
Like I said, I don't know if this is the right decision to make now, but I've made it. Period. I know I'm going to have to put in a major work load starting Monday, not only with studies and work at an academic level, but also work on my social skills, on coping with the social arena, on dealing with other things, such as my essay or the fact that I need the bathroom floor redone (still haven't heard anything from the Floor-Guy) and other things - but doesn't that give me all the more reason to really take advantage of these days and do the most of them?
Okay, rambling now, sorry!
Just wanted to let you know what I've come up with, since I did sleep for about 2 hours last night and have spent most of the time trying to figure out what to do with my life now. And I've reached a decision, so here it is! :)
Now I'm gonna try to wake up properly - I still feel like a zombie even though it's lunch time - and see if I can't take a little tour out and enjoy the lovely weather we're having today!
Take care!
The last week or so haven't been great for me, I haven't been feeling very well, and I haven't gotten things done, in the way I had hoped, for various reason - some valid, some not, I guess. This has left me with a constant bad feeling about what I should have done and should do and what I haven't done.
So now I've decided something. I can't say for sure wether it's the right decision or not - but you often only know that after the fact anyway, so I'm gonna go with my decision anyway.
I've decided to take a break. I have three days, including today, before I'm starting a new semester, which I know will be very demanding. While I will not take as many courses as I did last semester, I will also miss out on some of the advantages I had last semester, so I'm definately counting with this one being equally difficult, if not worse! So, these last three days I will spend on me! I won't do anything I don't want to do, period! I will try to take advantage of these last few days of freedom (as I probably won't have any more until next summer or something!), and really enjoy myself! I will also try to not feel bad about things that aren't getting done ... I'm an expert on beating myself up for not coping or not being organized and efficient, but if I do that, the whole idea of enjoying these days will be lost, right?!
Like I said, I don't know if this is the right decision to make now, but I've made it. Period. I know I'm going to have to put in a major work load starting Monday, not only with studies and work at an academic level, but also work on my social skills, on coping with the social arena, on dealing with other things, such as my essay or the fact that I need the bathroom floor redone (still haven't heard anything from the Floor-Guy) and other things - but doesn't that give me all the more reason to really take advantage of these days and do the most of them?
Okay, rambling now, sorry!
Just wanted to let you know what I've come up with, since I did sleep for about 2 hours last night and have spent most of the time trying to figure out what to do with my life now. And I've reached a decision, so here it is! :)
Now I'm gonna try to wake up properly - I still feel like a zombie even though it's lunch time - and see if I can't take a little tour out and enjoy the lovely weather we're having today!
Take care!
Thursday, 28 August 2008
Happy Birthday Amanda Tapping!
First of all, wishing Amanda Tapping a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!I've been doing okay today, better than the last few days at least, and I guess that's something. I have tried clearing off a bit here (I tend to make a mess of a perfectly clean room in about 4 seconds!), I ran a few errands in town and mailed a few packages, I've gone through some photographs and put them into Albums - I'm so way behind on that, and I've been catching up on the AmandaTapping.com Forum ... not that bad, right?! :)
I still wish I was feeling better and could be more efficient, since I know that starting Monday I probably won't have neither time nor energy to do anything but studying - but I guess I shouldn't be too hard on myself either. After all, I haven't been feeling the best, and doing something has to be better than doing nothing!
Tomorrow I simply have to meet with CSN ("The National Board of Student Aid"), as I've been putting it off forever now. If I don't meet with them and try to sort things out, I won't get my money, so I really have no choice now. Hopefully I'm feeling up for it tomorrow.
I'm not quite sure how to plan the day though, as I really should do a lot of things. I have "errands" to run pretty much all over the county, and I still haven't figured out how to plan that, what to skip, what is better to do when ... it's kinda complicated. Guess I'll have to take sometime to sort that out tonight. CSN doesn't open until 1 p.m. but if I'm going half way across the county, maybe I should try to do that before CSN tomorrow ... life is hard! Ah well, I guess that will be sorted out somehow!
I'm happy to feel this much better, I hope it continues, because I know I'm gonna need every bit of energy I can get to cope with Uni on Monday, so fingers crossed!
Hope you are all doing well!
Today's Blog Dedication: To Birthday Girl Amanda Tapping!
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Val McDermid
Currently watching: Stargate SG-1, season 7
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow:CSN, errands ...
Wednesday, 27 August 2008
Getting A Blog Award! :)
Thank you to ANNIKA for giving me this blog award:
So the rules of the award are:
1. Put the logo on your blog.
2. Add a link to the person who awarded you
3. Give to seven other blogs
4. Add links to those blogs on your blog.
5. Leave a message for your nominee on their blogs.
Whoa, this was very difficult, because to tell the truth, I'm not that big a blog reader actually. Also, some of the blogs I'm nominating are in Swedish ...
Here we go!
1. Yes, cheating, but giving the award back to Annika ... I constantly read Annika's blog and check for updates, it's a nice varied blog with interesting posts! :)
2. tolle lege - Lena's blog! An interesting insight into her personal life, and you can trust she finds a funny twist to her posts - lovely blog! :) (swedish)
3. Sara's blog - while not updated very regularly, it's always great to read what's she's up to (and what she feels is worth blogging about *lol*) (swedish)
4. Denna dagen, mitt liv. Johanna's blog, where she adds the sermons she's done - amazing read! While I've decided to definately not become a priest, it's fantastic to read how she interprets the Bible texts and what she decides to do with them! (swedish)
5. Even the Darkest Night Will End - Annika's Les Misérables blog is fantastic! I love reading her thoughts and comments on my absolute number one favourite musical! :)
6. Dakota's World - saw it already got an award, but I read this blog often and it's really lovely so I want to add it as well! :)
7. Film & TV - Jessica's blog about anything related to movies and television! Great reviews and interesting facts! (swedish)
So the rules of the award are:
1. Put the logo on your blog.
2. Add a link to the person who awarded you
3. Give to seven other blogs
4. Add links to those blogs on your blog.
5. Leave a message for your nominee on their blogs.
Whoa, this was very difficult, because to tell the truth, I'm not that big a blog reader actually. Also, some of the blogs I'm nominating are in Swedish ...
Here we go!
1. Yes, cheating, but giving the award back to Annika ... I constantly read Annika's blog and check for updates, it's a nice varied blog with interesting posts! :)
2. tolle lege - Lena's blog! An interesting insight into her personal life, and you can trust she finds a funny twist to her posts - lovely blog! :) (swedish)
3. Sara's blog - while not updated very regularly, it's always great to read what's she's up to (and what she feels is worth blogging about *lol*) (swedish)
4. Denna dagen, mitt liv. Johanna's blog, where she adds the sermons she's done - amazing read! While I've decided to definately not become a priest, it's fantastic to read how she interprets the Bible texts and what she decides to do with them! (swedish)
5. Even the Darkest Night Will End - Annika's Les Misérables blog is fantastic! I love reading her thoughts and comments on my absolute number one favourite musical! :)
6. Dakota's World - saw it already got an award, but I read this blog often and it's really lovely so I want to add it as well! :)
7. Film & TV - Jessica's blog about anything related to movies and television! Great reviews and interesting facts! (swedish)
Getting Back To Normal?
I apologize for the lack of blogging for the last few days. For various reasons I haven't been feeling very well lately, and I've been having a hard time doing anything at all - which has been very frustrated. I know myself well enough to realize that I do have these down-turns every now and again - and sometimes for no aparent reason - but they are still frustrating! During sensitive periods I need very little to get down and somewhat depressed, and now a few things happened at the same time ... and there I was.
The problem is I'm having difficulties working my way out of it now. I know all the right things to think and do, but every time I try them, something happens to make me feel down again. Again, it's nothing big, and mostly silly little details, but they are enough to hinder me from getting back on track.
I have tried to arrange a day or two in complete isolation now - which is a lot better than it sounds like actually! :) I'm getting more and more used to being out around people, and doing things, but when I feel like this, I still prefer isolation. That way I can really work with myself, thinking, talking, writing to myself and try to break the pattern I'm stuck in. If I try to do a lot of things, there's a big chance something will happen that makes me feel low again, and than all the work I've put in has been for nothing!
There's no guarantee this will work either, of course - there are no guarantees in life, period - but at least I think I stand a fighting chance now, and that's something, right?
I really hope I can find my way out of this, as I have tons of things to do, and I'm starting Uni on Monday! I realize I won't have time to do everything I had hoped and planned, because when I'm feeling as low as I have these past few days, I'm very destructive and not at all constructive, but at least I hope I can do something - and I also need to be both practically and emotionally prepared to start next semester!!
I'm still running auctions on Tradera - have sold some and will hopefully make a continuing project of it. Feel free to check it out **here**!
I have also made quite a few digi.scraps of my sisters the last few days. They have all been uploaded to my Picasa Album (if you want to see, email me for the URL), but I can't help but share a few of my favourites here! Enjoy!
The problem is I'm having difficulties working my way out of it now. I know all the right things to think and do, but every time I try them, something happens to make me feel down again. Again, it's nothing big, and mostly silly little details, but they are enough to hinder me from getting back on track.
I have tried to arrange a day or two in complete isolation now - which is a lot better than it sounds like actually! :) I'm getting more and more used to being out around people, and doing things, but when I feel like this, I still prefer isolation. That way I can really work with myself, thinking, talking, writing to myself and try to break the pattern I'm stuck in. If I try to do a lot of things, there's a big chance something will happen that makes me feel low again, and than all the work I've put in has been for nothing!
There's no guarantee this will work either, of course - there are no guarantees in life, period - but at least I think I stand a fighting chance now, and that's something, right?
I really hope I can find my way out of this, as I have tons of things to do, and I'm starting Uni on Monday! I realize I won't have time to do everything I had hoped and planned, because when I'm feeling as low as I have these past few days, I'm very destructive and not at all constructive, but at least I hope I can do something - and I also need to be both practically and emotionally prepared to start next semester!!
I'm still running auctions on Tradera - have sold some and will hopefully make a continuing project of it. Feel free to check it out **here**!
I have also made quite a few digi.scraps of my sisters the last few days. They have all been uploaded to my Picasa Album (if you want to see, email me for the URL), but I can't help but share a few of my favourites here! Enjoy!
Monday, 25 August 2008
Tagged!
Here are my ABC's:
(was tagged by Annika)
Attached or Single?: Single
Best Friend?: I have a few close friends, but don't ask me to choose one of them!
Cake or Pie?: Probably cake ...
Day of Choice?: Depends on what week I'm having!
Essential Item?: My Diary
Flavor of Ice Cream?: Vanilla
Gummy Bears or Worms?: Don't really care for either one of them ...
Hometown?: A somewhat small town in souther Sweden
Indulgences?: DVDs ...
January or July?: January
Kids?: Don't have any kids of my own unfortunately.
Last Movie I saw in a Theater?: Mamma Mia!
Middle Name?: Well, Jessica is technically my middle name, my first is Ann-Marie.
Number of Siblings?: Two younger (step) sisters.
Oranges or Apples?: Apples
Phobia or Fear?: I'm experiencing both of them (on different scales), and hate them equally.
Quote?: “To love another person is to see the face of God” (Les Misérables)
Reason to Smile?: My little sisters
Season?: Fall
Tag Four More: Lena, Sara, Jessica ... don't think I can think of a fourth ...
Unknown Fact About Me?: I rode a camel named Helmut once (*LOL* It's true, I promise!)
Vegetarian or Oppressor of Animals?: Let's just say ... I eat meat ...
Worst Habit?: Skipping breakfast a bit too often.
Xrays or Ultrasounds?: Only ever had Xrays ... and that was not a good time!
Your favourite food?: Tacos
Zodiac?: Aquarius
(was tagged by Annika)
Attached or Single?: Single
Best Friend?: I have a few close friends, but don't ask me to choose one of them!
Cake or Pie?: Probably cake ...
Day of Choice?: Depends on what week I'm having!
Essential Item?: My Diary
Flavor of Ice Cream?: Vanilla
Gummy Bears or Worms?: Don't really care for either one of them ...
Hometown?: A somewhat small town in souther Sweden
Indulgences?: DVDs ...
January or July?: January
Kids?: Don't have any kids of my own unfortunately.
Last Movie I saw in a Theater?: Mamma Mia!
Middle Name?: Well, Jessica is technically my middle name, my first is Ann-Marie.
Number of Siblings?: Two younger (step) sisters.
Oranges or Apples?: Apples
Phobia or Fear?: I'm experiencing both of them (on different scales), and hate them equally.
Quote?: “To love another person is to see the face of God” (Les Misérables)
Reason to Smile?: My little sisters
Season?: Fall
Tag Four More: Lena, Sara, Jessica ... don't think I can think of a fourth ...
Unknown Fact About Me?: I rode a camel named Helmut once (*LOL* It's true, I promise!)
Vegetarian or Oppressor of Animals?: Let's just say ... I eat meat ...
Worst Habit?: Skipping breakfast a bit too often.
Xrays or Ultrasounds?: Only ever had Xrays ... and that was not a good time!
Your favourite food?: Tacos
Zodiac?: Aquarius
Saturday, 23 August 2008
An Intense Week!
After having visitors here Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday, I spent better part of yesterday more or less in a coma! I am coping with social situations waaaay better now than ever before - go back a few years (even less) and I could never have survived a week like this - but I'm still getting tired from it!
Absolutely nothing happened yesterday, I pretty much ended up playing silly computer games or watched "Stargate SG-1", that was it!
Most of this morning was the same, I had major difficulties getting started, and everything turned into being very hard! I finally managed to pull myself together and take the bus to get some more cheap clothes (probably the first time in my life I haven't felt like I've been to Hell and back when I've bought clothes!) ... especially jeans. I wear them more or less all the time, and since I'd found a model I really liked, and they were really cheap, I'd figured I get another pair.
I got there - in pouring rain - and found not one, but two pair of jeans and a really nice tunic! I probably haven't bought this much clothes in 5 years together! *lol*
Still, that little outing made my mood a bit better, so after that I managed to clear up the kitchen, which had been a mess since Taco-night, and I've also started studying a little. I had some notes from last semester's Hebrew course that I hadn't finished retyping. I got a few 'missing ones' from Lena the other day, and I really want that finished and completed when I start the next semester. It was a good thing I got started to, I had no idea it was so much!! When I started going through them, it turned out there are about 70 pages of rough notes to retype and work through *yikes!*. That sure will take a while to finish!
Now I'm hoping for a fairly early night tonight, and a constructive day tomorrow! I have lots of projects, I am behind on a lot of internet stuff (forums etc), I shall continue the Hebrew-notes-project, I should add more auctions to Tradera, I should start cleaning the bedroom ... no doubt I will be busy! :)
Take care!
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Val McDermid
Currently watching: Stargate SG-1, season 6
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: Lots of little projects (see above)
Absolutely nothing happened yesterday, I pretty much ended up playing silly computer games or watched "Stargate SG-1", that was it!
Most of this morning was the same, I had major difficulties getting started, and everything turned into being very hard! I finally managed to pull myself together and take the bus to get some more cheap clothes (probably the first time in my life I haven't felt like I've been to Hell and back when I've bought clothes!) ... especially jeans. I wear them more or less all the time, and since I'd found a model I really liked, and they were really cheap, I'd figured I get another pair.
I got there - in pouring rain - and found not one, but two pair of jeans and a really nice tunic! I probably haven't bought this much clothes in 5 years together! *lol*
Still, that little outing made my mood a bit better, so after that I managed to clear up the kitchen, which had been a mess since Taco-night, and I've also started studying a little. I had some notes from last semester's Hebrew course that I hadn't finished retyping. I got a few 'missing ones' from Lena the other day, and I really want that finished and completed when I start the next semester. It was a good thing I got started to, I had no idea it was so much!! When I started going through them, it turned out there are about 70 pages of rough notes to retype and work through *yikes!*. That sure will take a while to finish!
Now I'm hoping for a fairly early night tonight, and a constructive day tomorrow! I have lots of projects, I am behind on a lot of internet stuff (forums etc), I shall continue the Hebrew-notes-project, I should add more auctions to Tradera, I should start cleaning the bedroom ... no doubt I will be busy! :)
Take care!
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Val McDermid
Currently watching: Stargate SG-1, season 6
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: Lots of little projects (see above)
Friday, 22 August 2008
I Am So Lucky!
I really feel like I'm such a lucky person today!!
I had a fantastic day yesterday - and the entire week has just been amazing - and I feel really lucky and blessed!
But I guess I should start at the beginning...
I had intended going shopping first thing tomorrow morning, as a store just north of town were having a clothes sale (I truly hate buying clothes, as I feel like a fat cow every time I try anything on, but then again, I simply have to have clothes to wear, so sometimes I just don't have a choice).
I overslept a little, but still managed to get the early bus ... I started checking the clothes department of the store, and for a change I really didn't hate it!! *gasp* Okay, so I'd still be happy if I lost a whole bunch of kilos - and fast (working on that!) - but somehow the "trying-on-clothes" wasn't a complete torture. I actually found one pair of jeans (they were really comfortable, and looks okay and was super-cheap, so I'm seriously considering going back and getting another pair ... or two ... *lol*) and three (!) shirts!! One is a liiiiittle tight, but give me a serious week or two working on my food-and-excercise habits and it'll work out. And while the other ones also will look a lot better in a few weeks, I can at least wear them without worrying about looking like the biggest freak around!
I was also supposed to buy some food and vegetables, but they were really expensive, so I decided to get them when I got home.
As soon as I had payed for my clothes, I realized that my bus home, had left like a minute before - the next one was due in an hour! *sigh* I had however spotted a city-bus stop not far from the store, so I thought I'd go there, see if I can catch a city bus to the train station and take the train home. I was totally lucky, I ended up at the right bus stop and the came after like 15 seconds! Amazing! I had a nice little bus ride (I always enjoy going places I've never been before) and was able to come just in time for the train, I only had to wait about a minute for it.
Once I got home, I bought what I was supposed to, took a bus home, and was completely exhausted - so I slept for a few hours!
Then it was time to start getting things in order for Taco-Night! :) I did some clearing away, ran the vacuum cleaner, prepared most of the tacos and took a shower, and then headed to the train station to meet Sara and Johanna. They came from oposite directions, but both trains were late, so I had to wait about 15 minutes for Johanna, and then we spent about 5 minutes waiting for Sara.
It was SO nice to see them again, I have really really missed them during the summer! We have the same sense of humor and we can really comunicate in a wonderful way. For me, who is used to having major anxiety when it comes to dealing with people, and constantly worrying about what I'm saying, if it sounds right, if I'm doing the right things ... It's just a fantastic feeling to now meet lots of people, where that's not an issue!! I can be "me", relaxed and just say what comes to mind, without having to think twice about it - and it works! ;)
We had a lovely night, eating tons of Tacos - at least it felt that way - and more or less constant laughing! *LOL* I really really hope we can get together very soon again!
They left around midnight, but I was sooo hyper and riding on an adrenaline wave, so I didn't fall alseep until about 2 a.m.
I woke up around 5, with stomach cramps, so I was up taking some pain killers - went back to bed and slept to 10.30!!!!!!!!!!! *yikes*!!!! That never happens to me! :)
When I got up, feeling almost drugged, I realized that last night we spent some time getting things in and out of the refrigirator and the freezer, and the last time, we hadn't closed the freezer door properly ... so my floor was REALLY wet, there was ice all over and dripping constanly!
Still, not to fret, as I had been meaning to defrost my freezer for like a year or so ... now I'm finally getting it done! *lol* Most of the morning I've spent wiping my kitchen floor and removing ice. Still, I hope it won't take to long until it's done and I can get the freezer up and running again.
I had intended to go to Lund today, and deal with some problems I'm having with CSN ("The National Board of Student Aid"), but I'm really tired, the freezer isn't working yet, and my stomach cramps aren't that much fun right now, so I'm gonna have to deal with that next week instead.
For now, I'm thinking a nice, relaxing, quiet day today! :) Maybe, just maybe, I can start clearing in my bedroom, or add some auctions to tradera, but I'm definately NOT going to do some major project today! :)
Today's Blog Dedication: To All My Friends Wherever You Are - I am SO lucky to have you guys, thank you!
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Val McDermid
Currently watching: Stargate SG-1, season 5
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: No idea! :)
I had a fantastic day yesterday - and the entire week has just been amazing - and I feel really lucky and blessed!
But I guess I should start at the beginning...
I had intended going shopping first thing tomorrow morning, as a store just north of town were having a clothes sale (I truly hate buying clothes, as I feel like a fat cow every time I try anything on, but then again, I simply have to have clothes to wear, so sometimes I just don't have a choice).
I overslept a little, but still managed to get the early bus ... I started checking the clothes department of the store, and for a change I really didn't hate it!! *gasp* Okay, so I'd still be happy if I lost a whole bunch of kilos - and fast (working on that!) - but somehow the "trying-on-clothes" wasn't a complete torture. I actually found one pair of jeans (they were really comfortable, and looks okay and was super-cheap, so I'm seriously considering going back and getting another pair ... or two ... *lol*) and three (!) shirts!! One is a liiiiittle tight, but give me a serious week or two working on my food-and-excercise habits and it'll work out. And while the other ones also will look a lot better in a few weeks, I can at least wear them without worrying about looking like the biggest freak around!
I was also supposed to buy some food and vegetables, but they were really expensive, so I decided to get them when I got home.
As soon as I had payed for my clothes, I realized that my bus home, had left like a minute before - the next one was due in an hour! *sigh* I had however spotted a city-bus stop not far from the store, so I thought I'd go there, see if I can catch a city bus to the train station and take the train home. I was totally lucky, I ended up at the right bus stop and the came after like 15 seconds! Amazing! I had a nice little bus ride (I always enjoy going places I've never been before) and was able to come just in time for the train, I only had to wait about a minute for it.
Once I got home, I bought what I was supposed to, took a bus home, and was completely exhausted - so I slept for a few hours!
Then it was time to start getting things in order for Taco-Night! :) I did some clearing away, ran the vacuum cleaner, prepared most of the tacos and took a shower, and then headed to the train station to meet Sara and Johanna. They came from oposite directions, but both trains were late, so I had to wait about 15 minutes for Johanna, and then we spent about 5 minutes waiting for Sara.
It was SO nice to see them again, I have really really missed them during the summer! We have the same sense of humor and we can really comunicate in a wonderful way. For me, who is used to having major anxiety when it comes to dealing with people, and constantly worrying about what I'm saying, if it sounds right, if I'm doing the right things ... It's just a fantastic feeling to now meet lots of people, where that's not an issue!! I can be "me", relaxed and just say what comes to mind, without having to think twice about it - and it works! ;)
We had a lovely night, eating tons of Tacos - at least it felt that way - and more or less constant laughing! *LOL* I really really hope we can get together very soon again!
They left around midnight, but I was sooo hyper and riding on an adrenaline wave, so I didn't fall alseep until about 2 a.m.
I woke up around 5, with stomach cramps, so I was up taking some pain killers - went back to bed and slept to 10.30!!!!!!!!!!! *yikes*!!!! That never happens to me! :)
When I got up, feeling almost drugged, I realized that last night we spent some time getting things in and out of the refrigirator and the freezer, and the last time, we hadn't closed the freezer door properly ... so my floor was REALLY wet, there was ice all over and dripping constanly!
Still, not to fret, as I had been meaning to defrost my freezer for like a year or so ... now I'm finally getting it done! *lol* Most of the morning I've spent wiping my kitchen floor and removing ice. Still, I hope it won't take to long until it's done and I can get the freezer up and running again.
I had intended to go to Lund today, and deal with some problems I'm having with CSN ("The National Board of Student Aid"), but I'm really tired, the freezer isn't working yet, and my stomach cramps aren't that much fun right now, so I'm gonna have to deal with that next week instead.
For now, I'm thinking a nice, relaxing, quiet day today! :) Maybe, just maybe, I can start clearing in my bedroom, or add some auctions to tradera, but I'm definately NOT going to do some major project today! :)
Today's Blog Dedication: To All My Friends Wherever You Are - I am SO lucky to have you guys, thank you!
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Val McDermid
Currently watching: Stargate SG-1, season 5
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: No idea! :)
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