Right now I feel, probably lower than I have in a very long time. It feels like every time I try to fight my way out of a bad situation, it gets worse. No matter how hard I try, I get nothing in return, except feeling even more terrible.
People always tell me I should try to improve my self-image, that the way I look at myself is the roots to most of my problems, and that I should try to improve that. Well, tonight I don't only feel that would be impossibe, I also feel it would be wrong. Right now I am constantly reminded of everything that I'm lacking, how "different" I am, how I cannot cope with things that others can, how I can't even function on the most basic level ... so I'd say my self-image is rather accurate actually.
I'm really sorry to only come up with this depressing blog entry, but I can't really think of anything else but this right now.
I haven't been feeling great all day, and after recieving certain news tonight, the situation went from bad to unbarable ...