This morning was a bit chaotic, and didn't at all turn out the way I had planned or hoped! *sigh* I didn't get to Uni at all (sorry, am not in an explaining mood tonight), and that was cause for grumpiness. Then things just turned out really "weird" ... I was going to do things and then I changed my mind and then I kind of ended up doing them anyway and ... : "weird" ...
What is most worrying is how non-efficient I am right now though - because that really has me worried!! I am completely exhausted every minute of the day - which isn't much fun! At any given time, if I lay down, I think I'd fall asleep within 30 seconds! And that makes it very hard to focus and concentrate ...
But I can't tolerate that either! I have been lacking in studies for so long now, it won't work if I don't give it all I have and more than that!!!!!!! *upset* I'm mostly keeping up with my Greek studies, not completely, but I feel like I'm pretty up to speed, and even though you can always learn more grammar, I think it's working out.
I am however, super-worried about my essay - because it seems just hopeless. I don't know what I'm doing, what I should be doing, what I haven't done and what should come of it ... and that stresses me out completely! *sigh*
Since I missed lectures today, I don't know how far along we are exactly, but I hope we can keep doing this chapter for at least tomorrow, so we won't go through any new stuff then, beacause that would MAYBE give me SOME time to get started on my essay! At this point, it's basically reading a LOT of books to get an idea of how to go about it, what to focus on etc, but reading takes time - you can't plough through 2000 pages in a few hours ... *sigh - again*
Sorry, I won't go on and on ... This does have me worried, but I know the only thing that can ever change it is if I get my act together and start really studying! Period!
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Diamonds are forever, Ian Fleming
Currently watching: 2½ Men
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: Terrible Tuesday Two: lectures 8-10, mentor meeting 10-11, open lecture 11.15, optional essay-lecture 4-6, studies ...
Monday, 29 September 2008
Sunday, 28 September 2008
Back Again?
I have been feeling a lot better today than in a long time, which has been great!
I actually started feeling better yesterday, but for some reason, I didn't get anything done, and that annoyed me a great deal - so even if my health was better, my mood was rather foul. Today both of them are better! :)
I got some cleaning done this morning - and some Greek sentences! At noon I met Lena, we went to a ... I guess the best translation I can think of is "second-hand store", but they had some pretty fantastic things there - huge furniture, really old stuff (felt almost like being in a museum), old records and everything you can think of. They had a lot pianos there, and I really miss mine ... *sigh* I know I can't keep it here, there would be no way I'd be able to play anyway - but I really miss it ...
We went back here and had a chat and some coffee - and some Zorro-cuddling-time of course! :) I had a great time, and I'm noticing more and more how much I enjoy "talking theology"! *lol* I have known for quite some time that I have a genuine interest in the subject, but it becomes so much more evident when you discuss it. We have taken at least some of the same courses, and have the same general knowledge about things, which makes it very easy to discuss and check out different angles and ideas!
When Lena went home to study for her exam (Good Luck in Advance!!), I realized I had neglected shopping for a while, so I had to make an emergency-outing to the grocery store. Did manage to study some Greek grammar on the way though!
Had dinner when I got home, and have since tried to prepare sentences for tomorrow! While I can make the sentences work - I hope! - I have been very very tired tonight, so I haven't gotten as much done as I had hoped. Still, we have lectures at 10 tomorrow, so I'm hoping to get a few hours in tomorrow morning as well ...
The beginning of next week will be pretty intense for me. Tomorrow we have lectures 10-12 and at 3 there is a major educational information-meeting with our student councellor, and I have to (and want to!) attend ... since the Swedish University system has undergone some major changes to adapt to the European University system, things have turned out complicated to say the least! I have no idea how long this information will last, but at least I know I won't be home until rather late. (In between 12 and 3 I have to work seriously on my essay ... which I have neglected far too much!)
Tuesday is even worse ... yet another "Terrible Tuesday" I suppose! Greek lectures 8-10, then a mentor meeting 10-11. At 11.15 there's a lecture from the Bishop, on Theology and Science in the Postmodern Era (or something to that affect), and I'd really love to go to it. I've never gone to lectures such as that before, so I'm a little nervous ... but than again, if they advertise it at the Departmet, it has to be open for everyone, right?! :)
Then I have to continue working on my essay in the library, and 4-6 I have the optional essay-writing course - meaning I won't be home until 7.30 ... *yikes*
And after that there are Greek lectures 8-10 Wednesday, Thursday and Friday ...
I know it's only 8 p.m. but I'm gonna try to wind down and get to bed really early - I'm sooooo tired, there's really no point in trying to get anything more done tonight!
Hope you all had a great weekend!
Today's Blog Dedication: To Storsmulan, who's had a rotten day today! Hang in there!! *hugs*
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Diamonds are Forever, Ian Fleming
Currently watching: Stargate Atlantis, season 1
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: Lectures, information meeting, essay work, studies (see above)
I actually started feeling better yesterday, but for some reason, I didn't get anything done, and that annoyed me a great deal - so even if my health was better, my mood was rather foul. Today both of them are better! :)
I got some cleaning done this morning - and some Greek sentences! At noon I met Lena, we went to a ... I guess the best translation I can think of is "second-hand store", but they had some pretty fantastic things there - huge furniture, really old stuff (felt almost like being in a museum), old records and everything you can think of. They had a lot pianos there, and I really miss mine ... *sigh* I know I can't keep it here, there would be no way I'd be able to play anyway - but I really miss it ...
We went back here and had a chat and some coffee - and some Zorro-cuddling-time of course! :) I had a great time, and I'm noticing more and more how much I enjoy "talking theology"! *lol* I have known for quite some time that I have a genuine interest in the subject, but it becomes so much more evident when you discuss it. We have taken at least some of the same courses, and have the same general knowledge about things, which makes it very easy to discuss and check out different angles and ideas!
When Lena went home to study for her exam (Good Luck in Advance!!), I realized I had neglected shopping for a while, so I had to make an emergency-outing to the grocery store. Did manage to study some Greek grammar on the way though!
Had dinner when I got home, and have since tried to prepare sentences for tomorrow! While I can make the sentences work - I hope! - I have been very very tired tonight, so I haven't gotten as much done as I had hoped. Still, we have lectures at 10 tomorrow, so I'm hoping to get a few hours in tomorrow morning as well ...
The beginning of next week will be pretty intense for me. Tomorrow we have lectures 10-12 and at 3 there is a major educational information-meeting with our student councellor, and I have to (and want to!) attend ... since the Swedish University system has undergone some major changes to adapt to the European University system, things have turned out complicated to say the least! I have no idea how long this information will last, but at least I know I won't be home until rather late. (In between 12 and 3 I have to work seriously on my essay ... which I have neglected far too much!)
Tuesday is even worse ... yet another "Terrible Tuesday" I suppose! Greek lectures 8-10, then a mentor meeting 10-11. At 11.15 there's a lecture from the Bishop, on Theology and Science in the Postmodern Era (or something to that affect), and I'd really love to go to it. I've never gone to lectures such as that before, so I'm a little nervous ... but than again, if they advertise it at the Departmet, it has to be open for everyone, right?! :)
Then I have to continue working on my essay in the library, and 4-6 I have the optional essay-writing course - meaning I won't be home until 7.30 ... *yikes*
And after that there are Greek lectures 8-10 Wednesday, Thursday and Friday ...
I know it's only 8 p.m. but I'm gonna try to wind down and get to bed really early - I'm sooooo tired, there's really no point in trying to get anything more done tonight!
Hope you all had a great weekend!
Today's Blog Dedication: To Storsmulan, who's had a rotten day today! Hang in there!! *hugs*
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Diamonds are Forever, Ian Fleming
Currently watching: Stargate Atlantis, season 1
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: Lectures, information meeting, essay work, studies (see above)
Friday, 26 September 2008
Oh, What A Long Day!
Wow, it feels like this day has gone on forever!
I woke up with a headache - again!! It's lasted for a whole week now, and it's really starting to get on my nerves!!! Anyway, I knew we had a pretty important lecture today, with both the Friday-Test and a run-through of some major grammar, so staying in bed wasn't really an option. Though I tried every means possible to get rid of the headache, I didn't succeed, and by the time I got to Uni, it had started getting worse.
Apart from the headache, lectures worked out really well. We didn't have to take the Friday-test, our teacher is writing a book, and has passed his due-date, so he's quite busy doing that, instead of coming up with tests for us! I guess it was good in a way, but I still like to take these tests, as they give you a very good picture of what you actually know and what you have to work harder with ...
We went through some new grammar and overall, I think it worked out really well. I could participate in discussions, both during the break and after the lecture, and both included our teacher, which I think is a good thing for me. Since I really want to continue within this Department, I think that establishing myself there, both with the student but also with the teachers, is a good thing.
I was supposed have stayed in the library working on my essay, but my headache was really nasty after two hours of Greek grammar, so I went home. I had intended to go shopping, I have put it off for a while now as it's a bit out of my way, but the trains were late, so I missed my connecting bus.
Instead I went home and tried to get some sleep. I slept for almost three hours (!!), and the head felt a little bit better when I woke up - but I was still extremely tired, so I didn't get much done at all! *hate it when that happens* The headache came back during the afternoon, and even though I've tried studying, I don't think I've learned anything! *frustrating and annoying*
I'm starting to get very upset about this headache now, because I can't seem to function properly with it, and yet I hate having to postpone everything in my life because of it, because it's a hard fact of life that eventually I will have postponed so much, I won't be able to catch up ... and that bothers me a lot!
So much in my life is going really really well now - and for that I am utterly greatful - but the headache thing is getting quite uncomfortable now ... Guess all I can do is go to bed and hope for the best, right?! :)
Take care!
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Licence To Kill, John Gardner
Currently watching: Family Guy
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: Errands, cleaning, maybe laundry, studies
I woke up with a headache - again!! It's lasted for a whole week now, and it's really starting to get on my nerves!!! Anyway, I knew we had a pretty important lecture today, with both the Friday-Test and a run-through of some major grammar, so staying in bed wasn't really an option. Though I tried every means possible to get rid of the headache, I didn't succeed, and by the time I got to Uni, it had started getting worse.
Apart from the headache, lectures worked out really well. We didn't have to take the Friday-test, our teacher is writing a book, and has passed his due-date, so he's quite busy doing that, instead of coming up with tests for us! I guess it was good in a way, but I still like to take these tests, as they give you a very good picture of what you actually know and what you have to work harder with ...
We went through some new grammar and overall, I think it worked out really well. I could participate in discussions, both during the break and after the lecture, and both included our teacher, which I think is a good thing for me. Since I really want to continue within this Department, I think that establishing myself there, both with the student but also with the teachers, is a good thing.
I was supposed have stayed in the library working on my essay, but my headache was really nasty after two hours of Greek grammar, so I went home. I had intended to go shopping, I have put it off for a while now as it's a bit out of my way, but the trains were late, so I missed my connecting bus.
Instead I went home and tried to get some sleep. I slept for almost three hours (!!), and the head felt a little bit better when I woke up - but I was still extremely tired, so I didn't get much done at all! *hate it when that happens* The headache came back during the afternoon, and even though I've tried studying, I don't think I've learned anything! *frustrating and annoying*
I'm starting to get very upset about this headache now, because I can't seem to function properly with it, and yet I hate having to postpone everything in my life because of it, because it's a hard fact of life that eventually I will have postponed so much, I won't be able to catch up ... and that bothers me a lot!
So much in my life is going really really well now - and for that I am utterly greatful - but the headache thing is getting quite uncomfortable now ... Guess all I can do is go to bed and hope for the best, right?! :)
Take care!
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Licence To Kill, John Gardner
Currently watching: Family Guy
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: Errands, cleaning, maybe laundry, studies
Thursday, 25 September 2008
A Strange Day ... And A Tech Question!
Well, let's start with the boring part - the "tech question" ...
While I know my way around a TV/video/dvd and a computer, I don't know much about "techonology" in general ... and I have sort of a problem.
I have a few old casette tapes, you know, the old kind that you were using when the people my age were about 10 years old (*lol*), and they are starting to get worn out. I'd really LOVE to be able to preserve them, they have some sentimental value to me ... so I would LOVE to get them on a CD. Which kind of ties me into my next tech-question! *lol* Part one is, of course, how do you get a casette into a CD?! *lol*
I kind of had a home-made answer to that, in that I though I could use a microphone plugged into my computer, and more or less record the sound from the casette player onto my computer, and then burn it onto a CD ... well, newsflash, that didn't work. Because aparently I am incapable of plugging in a microphone to my computer!!! Which feels a bit strange ... I have tried plugging a "regular" microphone into pretty much everything that will work, no luck! Anybody have any suggestions?!?!? I feel like an idiot, but I would like to make this work!
So, to summarize - this tech question is parted in two:
Part One: how do you, in the simplest way, get a casette tape onto a CD?
Part Two: how do you make a microphone work on your computer?
Okay, moving on ...
This day has sooo not turned out the way I planned it! I had hoped to get a milion things done, getting up early, running errands and study like a maniac ... yeah right!! *eyes rolling!*
Zorro woke up at 3.15 and made sure I wasn't getting any sleep either! He kept cuddling, running, clawing, cuddling, running, screaming, cuddling, clawing, screaming and cuddling non-stop, which made it impossible for me to relax ... he finally calmed down at about 5.45, and I fell asleep - and didn't wake up until 9 o'clock!!!!!! *gasp* Sooooo not according to plan!!!
I didn't get my errands done - except shopping - and I didn't get much studying done at all!! *deep sigh*
I did take an evening walk yesterday, but I didn't get the pictures transferred until tonight! But here they are! :) Enjoy!
Still ...
I had intended to get a bit of "free time" tomorrow, seeing as how it's Friday ... but since I didn't get much done at all today, I guess today will constitute my "day off" - and I will spend tomorrow studying! :)
I have done a little bit of studying - and I have FINALLY gotten started on my super-secret project, so at least this day doesn't feel completely wasted! Always something, right?!
But since I have to get up at 4 a.m., I really should start thinking about getting some sleep now.
Also - I have sooooo much to do and feeling generally stressed out, but I've still decided to start a new blog! *sigh* I'm hopeless!!! It's in Swedish, and I'd love to get some readers *lol*, so check it out here:
http://www.teologistudent.blogspot.com/!!
Take care!
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Goldeneye, John Gardner
Currently watching: Stargate SG-1, season 10
Currently listening to: Prologue, Les Misérables Original Cast Recording
My Plans for tomorrow:Lectures 8-10, studies, shopping, studies, cleaning
While I know my way around a TV/video/dvd and a computer, I don't know much about "techonology" in general ... and I have sort of a problem.
I have a few old casette tapes, you know, the old kind that you were using when the people my age were about 10 years old (*lol*), and they are starting to get worn out. I'd really LOVE to be able to preserve them, they have some sentimental value to me ... so I would LOVE to get them on a CD. Which kind of ties me into my next tech-question! *lol* Part one is, of course, how do you get a casette into a CD?! *lol*
I kind of had a home-made answer to that, in that I though I could use a microphone plugged into my computer, and more or less record the sound from the casette player onto my computer, and then burn it onto a CD ... well, newsflash, that didn't work. Because aparently I am incapable of plugging in a microphone to my computer!!! Which feels a bit strange ... I have tried plugging a "regular" microphone into pretty much everything that will work, no luck! Anybody have any suggestions?!?!? I feel like an idiot, but I would like to make this work!
So, to summarize - this tech question is parted in two:
Part One: how do you, in the simplest way, get a casette tape onto a CD?
Part Two: how do you make a microphone work on your computer?
Okay, moving on ...
This day has sooo not turned out the way I planned it! I had hoped to get a milion things done, getting up early, running errands and study like a maniac ... yeah right!! *eyes rolling!*
Zorro woke up at 3.15 and made sure I wasn't getting any sleep either! He kept cuddling, running, clawing, cuddling, running, screaming, cuddling, clawing, screaming and cuddling non-stop, which made it impossible for me to relax ... he finally calmed down at about 5.45, and I fell asleep - and didn't wake up until 9 o'clock!!!!!! *gasp* Sooooo not according to plan!!!
I didn't get my errands done - except shopping - and I didn't get much studying done at all!! *deep sigh*
I did take an evening walk yesterday, but I didn't get the pictures transferred until tonight! But here they are! :) Enjoy!
Still ...
I had intended to get a bit of "free time" tomorrow, seeing as how it's Friday ... but since I didn't get much done at all today, I guess today will constitute my "day off" - and I will spend tomorrow studying! :)
I have done a little bit of studying - and I have FINALLY gotten started on my super-secret project, so at least this day doesn't feel completely wasted! Always something, right?!
But since I have to get up at 4 a.m., I really should start thinking about getting some sleep now.
Also - I have sooooo much to do and feeling generally stressed out, but I've still decided to start a new blog! *sigh* I'm hopeless!!! It's in Swedish, and I'd love to get some readers *lol*, so check it out here:
http://www.teologistudent.blogspot.com/!!
Take care!
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Goldeneye, John Gardner
Currently watching: Stargate SG-1, season 10
Currently listening to: Prologue, Les Misérables Original Cast Recording
My Plans for tomorrow:Lectures 8-10, studies, shopping, studies, cleaning
Tuesday, 23 September 2008
Hopefully Getting Better!
The first thing I noticed when I woke up this morning: headache! *gaaaah*
I didn't make it to Uni, and that bothers me a lot!! I'm missing out on sooo much stuff now, and I really, really don't want to! Not only "regular" lectures, but mentor-meetings and essay-information and God knows what else!
Still, not much I can do about it, I suppose ...
I spent better part of the morning, once again trying to get rid of the headache, but it's been stubborn to say the least this time! Around 2 p.m. it felt "okay", and have been ever since, even though I'm still in minor pain...
Since then I have managed to prepare all sentences (they were due today, but I don't think they had the time to go through all of them, so there are probably some left to deal with tomorrow), and also go back and check out what I have missed, what I don't know. I think I have narrowed that down, and at least that lets me know what I'm supposed to be working on ....
My cold is definately better now, a bit of a runny nose, but that's it, and I can definately live with that. After my study session (which was done in parts, as I had to take breaks often), my head feels worse again, but I desperately hope it will be better tomorrow.
I need to be feeling fit for fight tomorrow, for so many reasons, so having a headache (or something else!) simply isn't an option ... I just hope my head - and the rest of my body - understands and accepts that!
We have lectures at 8 tomorrow morning, and I have a feeling he might go through the next chapter then (or he might save it to Friday - we don't have lectures on Thursday), and that means I have to be there!
Then I'm off to the big University library, as I think I have found a book for my essay, that might be just what I need. After that I will study in the Department library, there are lots of books to read there as well - and should I get any time left over (yeah right! *rolling eyes*), I need to go back and learn all the Greek I've missed.
I will also be meeting Lena, as she has a seminar tomorrow afternoon. I'm really looking forward to seeing her again, we haven't seen each other for a while now!
Yup, those are my plans ...
I should try to relax now - and maybe study a little more Greek tonight - but I will definately try to go to bed early and get as much sleep as possible ... hopefully that will make me feel better in the morning!
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Goldeneye, John Gardner
Currently watching: Stargate SG-1, season 10
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: Lectures, Libraries, Lena (lots of L's! *lol*) - see above for details.
I didn't make it to Uni, and that bothers me a lot!! I'm missing out on sooo much stuff now, and I really, really don't want to! Not only "regular" lectures, but mentor-meetings and essay-information and God knows what else!
Still, not much I can do about it, I suppose ...
I spent better part of the morning, once again trying to get rid of the headache, but it's been stubborn to say the least this time! Around 2 p.m. it felt "okay", and have been ever since, even though I'm still in minor pain...
Since then I have managed to prepare all sentences (they were due today, but I don't think they had the time to go through all of them, so there are probably some left to deal with tomorrow), and also go back and check out what I have missed, what I don't know. I think I have narrowed that down, and at least that lets me know what I'm supposed to be working on ....
My cold is definately better now, a bit of a runny nose, but that's it, and I can definately live with that. After my study session (which was done in parts, as I had to take breaks often), my head feels worse again, but I desperately hope it will be better tomorrow.
I need to be feeling fit for fight tomorrow, for so many reasons, so having a headache (or something else!) simply isn't an option ... I just hope my head - and the rest of my body - understands and accepts that!
We have lectures at 8 tomorrow morning, and I have a feeling he might go through the next chapter then (or he might save it to Friday - we don't have lectures on Thursday), and that means I have to be there!
Then I'm off to the big University library, as I think I have found a book for my essay, that might be just what I need. After that I will study in the Department library, there are lots of books to read there as well - and should I get any time left over (yeah right! *rolling eyes*), I need to go back and learn all the Greek I've missed.
I will also be meeting Lena, as she has a seminar tomorrow afternoon. I'm really looking forward to seeing her again, we haven't seen each other for a while now!
Yup, those are my plans ...
I should try to relax now - and maybe study a little more Greek tonight - but I will definately try to go to bed early and get as much sleep as possible ... hopefully that will make me feel better in the morning!
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Goldeneye, John Gardner
Currently watching: Stargate SG-1, season 10
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: Lectures, Libraries, Lena (lots of L's! *lol*) - see above for details.
Monday, 22 September 2008
Surviving?
Okay, this has not been a good start of the week, that's for sure!
I woke up feeling pretty terrible this morning, but I really felt I HAD to get to Uni, so I stacked up on medicines and coffee throughout the morning. On my way to Uni I had a few "incidents" (sorry, they're a bit too personal to share in a public blog), and they had quite an effect on me! Had this been two - or maybe just one (?) year ago, I probably would have turned around and gone back home ... but I didn't.
I think I coped fairly well with the lecture - I was asked to read and I did, and I also answered some grammatical questions that were tied into "my" sentence. Unfortunately, my cold was making itself known and I started getting a nasty headache. We went through the second half of the chapter during the last 20 minutes of the lecture, but I felt completely out-of-it, and I still don't know if I understood what it was about!!
I was supposed to go to a store a bit north of where I live to buy some clothes directly after Uni, but there was no way I could cope with that, I even had a hard time making it home.
I have spent the entire day trying to get rid of my headache, no luck! I'm feeling seriously stressed out now, I'm falling more and more behind for every hour that goes by, and yet I know there's no point in even trying to study when I feel like this! To grasp these sentences, and make any kind of sense in them, you have to be 100% concentrated and focused - and with this bad a headache, there's no way I can do that!!
It feels very important to be to actually go to all the lectures now, since I've missed a number of them ... but things aren't always that easy ... I don't have the energy (and my head hurts!!) to go into a long discussion about it, but fact of the matter is, this Uni situation is starting to get very complicated now that I don't feel well. I also have the optional essay-writing-course-thingy tomorrow, which I really feel I should go to ...
And on the other hand - going to lectures today made my cold a lot worse, which should mean that it won't exactly get better if I go tomorrow!
I haven't decided what to do yet, because I really don't know. And I don't think I will decide until tomorrow ....
I have split feelings about this as well - it feels very stupid, and almost petty, to complain about these things, when I know how I felt about the entire Uni situation some 2-3 years ago! I couldn't even set foot inside the Department without suffering a major anxiety attack, I had to work out alternate solutions with every single teacher I ever came across, I was completely socially isolated and couldn't talk to anyone ... comparing that to what my life is about now is almost scary! Now all I'm worrying about is not being able to be at the Department! *laughs a little*
Still, I can't just shrug this off! I know I'm waaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyy better off now than I have ever been, and trust me, I am very, very grateful for that. But fact of the matter is, for every single hour I don't spent 100% of me studying, I fall further behind. And eventually, I won't be able to pick up the pieces any more! And that is speaking purely from experience!!
Well, after this entry my head is more or less falling off my shoulders, so I guess I shouldn't stay in front of the computer any longer. Just thought I'd let you know what's going on - and as usual it turned into a ramble! :)
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Vildåsnans törst, Åke Lundqvist
Currently watching: 2½ Men
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: I have no idea!
I woke up feeling pretty terrible this morning, but I really felt I HAD to get to Uni, so I stacked up on medicines and coffee throughout the morning. On my way to Uni I had a few "incidents" (sorry, they're a bit too personal to share in a public blog), and they had quite an effect on me! Had this been two - or maybe just one (?) year ago, I probably would have turned around and gone back home ... but I didn't.
I think I coped fairly well with the lecture - I was asked to read and I did, and I also answered some grammatical questions that were tied into "my" sentence. Unfortunately, my cold was making itself known and I started getting a nasty headache. We went through the second half of the chapter during the last 20 minutes of the lecture, but I felt completely out-of-it, and I still don't know if I understood what it was about!!
I was supposed to go to a store a bit north of where I live to buy some clothes directly after Uni, but there was no way I could cope with that, I even had a hard time making it home.
I have spent the entire day trying to get rid of my headache, no luck! I'm feeling seriously stressed out now, I'm falling more and more behind for every hour that goes by, and yet I know there's no point in even trying to study when I feel like this! To grasp these sentences, and make any kind of sense in them, you have to be 100% concentrated and focused - and with this bad a headache, there's no way I can do that!!
It feels very important to be to actually go to all the lectures now, since I've missed a number of them ... but things aren't always that easy ... I don't have the energy (and my head hurts!!) to go into a long discussion about it, but fact of the matter is, this Uni situation is starting to get very complicated now that I don't feel well. I also have the optional essay-writing-course-thingy tomorrow, which I really feel I should go to ...
And on the other hand - going to lectures today made my cold a lot worse, which should mean that it won't exactly get better if I go tomorrow!
I haven't decided what to do yet, because I really don't know. And I don't think I will decide until tomorrow ....
I have split feelings about this as well - it feels very stupid, and almost petty, to complain about these things, when I know how I felt about the entire Uni situation some 2-3 years ago! I couldn't even set foot inside the Department without suffering a major anxiety attack, I had to work out alternate solutions with every single teacher I ever came across, I was completely socially isolated and couldn't talk to anyone ... comparing that to what my life is about now is almost scary! Now all I'm worrying about is not being able to be at the Department! *laughs a little*
Still, I can't just shrug this off! I know I'm waaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyy better off now than I have ever been, and trust me, I am very, very grateful for that. But fact of the matter is, for every single hour I don't spent 100% of me studying, I fall further behind. And eventually, I won't be able to pick up the pieces any more! And that is speaking purely from experience!!
Well, after this entry my head is more or less falling off my shoulders, so I guess I shouldn't stay in front of the computer any longer. Just thought I'd let you know what's going on - and as usual it turned into a ramble! :)
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Vildåsnans törst, Åke Lundqvist
Currently watching: 2½ Men
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: I have no idea!
Sunday, 21 September 2008
Recovered?
Okay, I guess it's time to summarize the weekend now.
First and formost, I was happy to see my visitors reaching 12,300 on the day of my second anniversary! Yay! Still would like to hear a little something from you readers though ... ;)
I've been suffering a cold pretty much all of the weekend, and while I haven't been completely under the weather, I haven't been able to study nearly as much as I should have! My head just hasn't been with me at all, and that makes studies pretty much impossible. I know there's not much I could have done about it, but that doesn't change the fact that I have fallen behind, both in the Greek-course and in the essay writing! And I have an intense enough semester now, without falling behind ...
I have felt better tonight, I have prepared the sentences for tomorrow - although it was almost scary, but I fully realized how much I really don't know and how far behind I have gotten now! *yikes* I have also managed to clean the kitchen and bathroom, run the vacuum and take a shower, so I definately think I'm on the mend now.
I do hope I won't get worse tomorrow, when I have to go out and about again ... but I can't miss lectures, so I have no choice ...
I know I have a really rough semester ahead of me now, trying to both take Greek and write the essay, and I know I have to put pretty much all the time I have into studying - and I don't mind that so much. The problem arises when something happens that makes me unable to study ... Since things are so intense right now, I can't afford to take a break, I have to keep up all the time - because it's pure terror to try to both keep up and catch up on stuff you've missed!!! Which is exactly what I'm in for this week! *sigh*
Things are the way they are now, not much to say or do about that - but it will be difficult to deal with, and I can definately not stay sick any longer, that would be pure disaster! So pleeeeease keep your fingers crossed my cold is really getting ready to leave for good now!
Thanks!
I hope you all enjoyed your weekend, and I wish you a great week to come!
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Vildåsnans törst, Åke Lundqvist
Currently watching: Wire in the Blood, season 3
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: Greek Lectures, shopping, STUDIES
First and formost, I was happy to see my visitors reaching 12,300 on the day of my second anniversary! Yay! Still would like to hear a little something from you readers though ... ;)
I've been suffering a cold pretty much all of the weekend, and while I haven't been completely under the weather, I haven't been able to study nearly as much as I should have! My head just hasn't been with me at all, and that makes studies pretty much impossible. I know there's not much I could have done about it, but that doesn't change the fact that I have fallen behind, both in the Greek-course and in the essay writing! And I have an intense enough semester now, without falling behind ...
I have felt better tonight, I have prepared the sentences for tomorrow - although it was almost scary, but I fully realized how much I really don't know and how far behind I have gotten now! *yikes* I have also managed to clean the kitchen and bathroom, run the vacuum and take a shower, so I definately think I'm on the mend now.
I do hope I won't get worse tomorrow, when I have to go out and about again ... but I can't miss lectures, so I have no choice ...
I know I have a really rough semester ahead of me now, trying to both take Greek and write the essay, and I know I have to put pretty much all the time I have into studying - and I don't mind that so much. The problem arises when something happens that makes me unable to study ... Since things are so intense right now, I can't afford to take a break, I have to keep up all the time - because it's pure terror to try to both keep up and catch up on stuff you've missed!!! Which is exactly what I'm in for this week! *sigh*
Things are the way they are now, not much to say or do about that - but it will be difficult to deal with, and I can definately not stay sick any longer, that would be pure disaster! So pleeeeease keep your fingers crossed my cold is really getting ready to leave for good now!
Thanks!
I hope you all enjoyed your weekend, and I wish you a great week to come!
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Vildåsnans törst, Åke Lundqvist
Currently watching: Wire in the Blood, season 3
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: Greek Lectures, shopping, STUDIES
Saturday, 20 September 2008
Happy Anniversary: Another Day - Another Destiny!
This blog celebrates it's second birthday today! :)
I started it on 20 September 2006, after having problems with another blog here at Blogger. I honestly haven't made a lot of internet projects work lately, but this blog seems to be doing pretty well - well over 12,000 visitors isn't bad, right?!
I would like to make a request to my readers though, seeing as I'm celebrating at all. While the counter keeps climbing, I get very few comments on this blog. I know who some of the readers are, but it would be very nice to just hear something from those that actually take the time to read this blog ... :) It doesn't take long to just leave me a line letting me know that you're out there, maybe where you're from ...
I'm basically writing this blog for myself, of course, it's very personal and deals with my life, my thoughts and my activities, but it's very nice to see (and hear from) others that are reading it!
Thanks! :)
A lot has happened to me personally, during these past few years, and I think this development has been made visible here in the blog as well. From being more or less just off sick-leave and just starting to find my way around University studies and my life in general, I now have a stable life, I'm happy with what I'm doing, I have a number of goals in my life, that I'm fighting to achieve, and that actually also seem quite possible!
I think I've also grown a lot on a personal level, I have become an adult in a way that I don't think I was in 2006, and I feel quite good about that. I'm learning to actually like who I am, dealing with the parts I don't like, but coming to terms with who I am and what I want to do with my life and myself.
I'm naturally hoping visitors will come back, I will do my very best to keep this blog up and running with regular entries. If you feel anything is missing, if there are any kind of entries you feel you want more, or less, of, please don't hesitate to let me know (you can leave a comment and be anonymous if you like)!
Thank you again for these past two years!
Friday, 19 September 2008
A Cold, A Test, A Project!
This has been a strange day indeed ...
I woke up this morning, feeling not so much of previous stomach cramps, but rather a cold with all it's classic symtoms - sore throat, runny nose, slight fever, a head that felt like it weighed in at 200 kilos!! Great!!
I had no choice but to go to lectures today, so I stuffed myself with various pills and managed to get in Uni in time for the lecture. And boy was I in for a surprise!!
I had totally forgotten about our weekly "test" that we are supposed to have every Friday! *gulp* I know it's nothing official, and we get to correct it ourselves, but it still felt pretty terrible, especially since I hadn't studied anything at all!!!
But apparently, this semester seems to be working out despite all, because when we went through the test in class, I hadn't made a single mistake! *wooo-hooo* Okay, there was one verb-form I didn't completely recognize, but from the context of the text, I figured out what it "had" to be - and I was right! The test was compiled in three parts, first a text to be translated (and we can't use dictionaries, so I was glad I had studied that!), second a few words to be analyzed, and thirdly, some grammatical questions! I know I still have to go over a few things I've missed, or not learned properly, but it still felt really good that I am keeping up the way I am! *yay* :)
I did have some problems during the lecture though, becuase I felt really terrible from my cold. When we were done, I went to the library, to look up some literature for my essay. The one book my professor said I had to read first of all, doesn't exist at our department library, or at the big university library! Thanks a lot!! I didn't have the energy to start bothering the staff about it, I have to deal with it next week. I also found out that all the other books are books you can not borrow, but have to read there ... so now my whole planning system has gone down the drain! If I have to do ALL my studying at the library, I'm not sure how I'm gonna make this work! I had counted on weekends as well ... *sigh*
I managed to get some errands out of the way before going home. I ate a little, and collapsed on my coach! Unfortunately I couldn't fall asleep, but I sort of dosed for a few hours, and felt a little better after that.
I have started clearing away a little, and I also continued my secret project! I've spent quite a lot of time on it tonight - only to find out that ALL I have done is in vain, because I can't use it!!!!!!!! *VERY angry now!!!!* Okay, I know I shouldn't start things when I'm this busy with studies, but if you knew what it was (but I can't tell you, sorry), you'd know it was something really worth doing! And now I've gone and spent hours and hours on something I can't use!!! It's not like I have all the time in the world right now!
That pretty much spoiled my mood tonight, so now I'm mostly upset at everything - I feel my cold even worse now, I'm starting to get a headache and everything feels pretty awful! *feeling sorry for myself now*
This day - despite all - has felt pretty good, until this final straw ... so now I'm in a really bad mood. I'm sorry to have to end this entry like this ... but that's the way things are now ...
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Vildåsnans törst, Åke Lundqvist
Currently watching: Wire in the Blood
Currently listening to: Prologue, Les Misérables Original London Cast
My Plans for tomorrow:Starting over on my project, studies, cleaning - maybe laundry
I woke up this morning, feeling not so much of previous stomach cramps, but rather a cold with all it's classic symtoms - sore throat, runny nose, slight fever, a head that felt like it weighed in at 200 kilos!! Great!!
I had no choice but to go to lectures today, so I stuffed myself with various pills and managed to get in Uni in time for the lecture. And boy was I in for a surprise!!
I had totally forgotten about our weekly "test" that we are supposed to have every Friday! *gulp* I know it's nothing official, and we get to correct it ourselves, but it still felt pretty terrible, especially since I hadn't studied anything at all!!!
But apparently, this semester seems to be working out despite all, because when we went through the test in class, I hadn't made a single mistake! *wooo-hooo* Okay, there was one verb-form I didn't completely recognize, but from the context of the text, I figured out what it "had" to be - and I was right! The test was compiled in three parts, first a text to be translated (and we can't use dictionaries, so I was glad I had studied that!), second a few words to be analyzed, and thirdly, some grammatical questions! I know I still have to go over a few things I've missed, or not learned properly, but it still felt really good that I am keeping up the way I am! *yay* :)
I did have some problems during the lecture though, becuase I felt really terrible from my cold. When we were done, I went to the library, to look up some literature for my essay. The one book my professor said I had to read first of all, doesn't exist at our department library, or at the big university library! Thanks a lot!! I didn't have the energy to start bothering the staff about it, I have to deal with it next week. I also found out that all the other books are books you can not borrow, but have to read there ... so now my whole planning system has gone down the drain! If I have to do ALL my studying at the library, I'm not sure how I'm gonna make this work! I had counted on weekends as well ... *sigh*
I managed to get some errands out of the way before going home. I ate a little, and collapsed on my coach! Unfortunately I couldn't fall asleep, but I sort of dosed for a few hours, and felt a little better after that.
I have started clearing away a little, and I also continued my secret project! I've spent quite a lot of time on it tonight - only to find out that ALL I have done is in vain, because I can't use it!!!!!!!! *VERY angry now!!!!* Okay, I know I shouldn't start things when I'm this busy with studies, but if you knew what it was (but I can't tell you, sorry), you'd know it was something really worth doing! And now I've gone and spent hours and hours on something I can't use!!! It's not like I have all the time in the world right now!
That pretty much spoiled my mood tonight, so now I'm mostly upset at everything - I feel my cold even worse now, I'm starting to get a headache and everything feels pretty awful! *feeling sorry for myself now*
This day - despite all - has felt pretty good, until this final straw ... so now I'm in a really bad mood. I'm sorry to have to end this entry like this ... but that's the way things are now ...
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Vildåsnans törst, Åke Lundqvist
Currently watching: Wire in the Blood
Currently listening to: Prologue, Les Misérables Original London Cast
My Plans for tomorrow:Starting over on my project, studies, cleaning - maybe laundry
Thursday, 18 September 2008
Blaaah ....
That pretty much describes my day today!
I've been suffering from these horrible stomach cramps all day, no matter what I have done. Doesn't seem fair you should be completely wiped out and feeling dead for something that is supposed to be "natural" *rolling eyes* ...
Unfortunately, I haven't been able to study much at all, and when I've tried, I haven't been able to make heads or tails about anything. Things are getting so complicated now, that you really need to be concentrated and focused to sort it all out - and since I've either been delirious with pain or delirious with pain medication, that hasn't worked out!
I still need to go to Uni tomorrow!! We will go through the next chapter during the Greek lecture, I need to get some shopping and errands done and I need to start checking out the litterature for my essay ... so I cannot skip going!
I know I have to tell the teacher I am unprepared and asked to be excused from the reading-thingy, but it feels sooooo terrible, since I did that last time! *ooops* I honestly totally know I cannot try to be excused every single time, becuase I need to work with this - and I want to! I want to be able to read and translate just like everybody else does - but I cannot not do it on top of my head - I'm not that smart! I will definately work at coping better with the whole concept, but there's no way I'm gonna stutter through something I haven't even prepared (some of the other students do that ...)! So I guess I'll have to hope that everybody somehow understand that I've been completely incapable of studying anything today - and cross my fingers and hope for the best ... *gulp* (not to fond of that approach to things, but I guess I have no choice now)
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Vildåsnans törst
Currently watching: Caterpillar Wish
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: Lecture, library, errands, studies, cleaning
I've been suffering from these horrible stomach cramps all day, no matter what I have done. Doesn't seem fair you should be completely wiped out and feeling dead for something that is supposed to be "natural" *rolling eyes* ...
Unfortunately, I haven't been able to study much at all, and when I've tried, I haven't been able to make heads or tails about anything. Things are getting so complicated now, that you really need to be concentrated and focused to sort it all out - and since I've either been delirious with pain or delirious with pain medication, that hasn't worked out!
I still need to go to Uni tomorrow!! We will go through the next chapter during the Greek lecture, I need to get some shopping and errands done and I need to start checking out the litterature for my essay ... so I cannot skip going!
I know I have to tell the teacher I am unprepared and asked to be excused from the reading-thingy, but it feels sooooo terrible, since I did that last time! *ooops* I honestly totally know I cannot try to be excused every single time, becuase I need to work with this - and I want to! I want to be able to read and translate just like everybody else does - but I cannot not do it on top of my head - I'm not that smart! I will definately work at coping better with the whole concept, but there's no way I'm gonna stutter through something I haven't even prepared (some of the other students do that ...)! So I guess I'll have to hope that everybody somehow understand that I've been completely incapable of studying anything today - and cross my fingers and hope for the best ... *gulp* (not to fond of that approach to things, but I guess I have no choice now)
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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Vildåsnans törst
Currently watching: Caterpillar Wish
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: Lecture, library, errands, studies, cleaning
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