Saturday, 18 August 2007

Carpe Diem!

I actually thought about something this morning, and I immediately felt I should include this in my blog-entry for tonight. (Therefore the title)

Carpe Diem - Seize the Day

I have felt pretty good the last few days. Minor things have not worked out well, but overall, I have felt good, I have felt satisfied with the way things have been and what I have done. That is something very rare with me, and when I started digging deeper in this, I reached a rather surprising conclusion.

Almost all the times I have felt good and things have worked, I have not really allowed myself to truly feel good!! I have always had in the back of my head, a distinct thought saying: Sure, you feel good now, but that never lasts, you know it never lasts, so you can't take anything for granted now - just because you feel good now doesn't mean things will work out.

And that is simply put, a load of crap!!!!!!
It's true, mind you - good feelings have a tendancy of not lasting too long in my life, but that shouldn't stop me from enjoying myself 100% on the rare occasions that they actually do!!
The more I thought about this, the more upset I became!!
I think it is very important to be able to enjoy and almost 'take advantage' of times when we are allowed to feel really good, when things are working out and we feel satisfaction with our lives - wether this has to do with love, children, work or whatever.
But fully enjoying these moments and really treasure them, we gather strength and energy that we need when things are not so great lately!
I don't mean we should be naïve and start taking things for granted - beacause there are certainly no guarantees in this life - but we should at least allow ourselves to treasure and take care of the happy times we get!!!

Sorry about preaching, but this is something I feel very strongly about, and I was quite upset when I started realizing all this!!

Apart from this massive thought process, I have spent most of the day burried in Hebrew texts. I haven't done as much as I felt I should have today, but I have been very tired for most of the day. I still have three whole days - and a few extra hours on Wednesday morning (the exam isn't until 2 p.m.) - so I'm hoping I will at least be able to study enough to pass without any major problems.

One bit of positive news as well - I finally figured out what to get my Mum for her birthday! It's coming up in a couple of weeks, and I always think it's very difficult to come up with a good present! But something struck me today, that I think she will be really happy about!
(Sorry, I can't tell you what it is - because I have a feeling I then would spoil the surprise for someone! )

Take care guys!
My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Namnet och Närvaron, Tryggve Mettinger
Currently watching: The X-Files, Season 4
Currently listening to: Les Misérables, London December 2005
My Plans for tomorrow: Studies, Hebrew, Studies, Psalms, More Studies, More Hebrew ...


Jexxie said...

Håller fullkomligt med om det förstnämnda i din blogg! JAG tänker också så och måste ha de här positiva minnena för att ta mig igenom svåra saker.

The Darkest Night said...

Now that's a lovely positive outlook on life! :) I hope you can keep it for a long time! :) Good luck with everything!

Jessica said...

Jexxie:Jag har alltid tidigare varit rädd för att bli besviken om jag maximalt har tagit vara på det som har varit positivt, men inser nu att man inte kan se det så riktigt! Man måste ta varje isolerad händelse för sig, och ta vara på det som är bra och positivt och försöka ta sig igenom det negativa på bästa möjliga sätt. Det är ju inte lätt att ändra sig i en handvändning, men jag tror att det är ett bra sätt att tänka.

the darkest night: I think, at least for me, that it is necessary I try to think of things like that from now on - and I have a feeling that I could have coped with all the bad things in my life in a better way, had I learned to get energy from the good things earlier. Naturally, things are going to feel hopeless and bad sometimes, but all the more reason to really savour the positive moments we get.
Oh, and BTW, good to see you here again! :) I know you've had other things on your mind, I don't mean it like that, but I always appreciate your comments!! :)

The Darkest Night said...

Yeah, I'm sorry I haven't been here much...been a crazy summer....(not in a good way).

I think sometimes I am able to focus on the positive things and ignore the bad stuff that happens, and yes it does make things so much easier. Sadly this only seems to work SOME TIMES for me...