I actually thought about something this morning, and I immediately felt I should include this in my blog-entry for tonight. (Therefore the title)
Carpe Diem - Seize the Day
I have felt pretty good the last few days. Minor things have not worked out well, but overall, I have felt good, I have felt satisfied with the way things have been and what I have done. That is something very rare with me, and when I started digging deeper in this, I reached a rather surprising conclusion.
Almost all the times I have felt good and things have worked, I have not really allowed myself to truly feel good!! I have always had in the back of my head, a distinct thought saying: Sure, you feel good now, but that never lasts, you know it never lasts, so you can't take anything for granted now - just because you feel good now doesn't mean things will work out.
And that is simply put, a load of crap!!!!!!
It's true, mind you - good feelings have a tendancy of not lasting too long in my life, but that shouldn't stop me from enjoying myself 100% on the rare occasions that they actually do!!
The more I thought about this, the more upset I became!!
I think it is very important to be able to enjoy and almost 'take advantage' of times when we are allowed to feel really good, when things are working out and we feel satisfaction with our lives - wether this has to do with love, children, work or whatever.
But fully enjoying these moments and really treasure them, we gather strength and energy that we need when things are not so great lately!
I don't mean we should be naïve and start taking things for granted - beacause there are certainly no guarantees in this life - but we should at least allow ourselves to treasure and take care of the happy times we get!!!
Sorry about preaching, but this is something I feel very strongly about, and I was quite upset when I started realizing all this!!
Apart from this massive thought process, I have spent most of the day burried in Hebrew texts. I haven't done as much as I felt I should have today, but I have been very tired for most of the day. I still have three whole days - and a few extra hours on Wednesday morning (the exam isn't until 2 p.m.) - so I'm hoping I will at least be able to study enough to pass without any major problems.
One bit of positive news as well - I finally figured out what to get my Mum for her birthday! It's coming up in a couple of weeks, and I always think it's very difficult to come up with a good present! But something struck me today, that I think she will be really happy about!
(Sorry, I can't tell you what it is - because I have a feeling I then would spoil the surprise for someone! )
Take care guys!
My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Namnet och Närvaron, Tryggve Mettinger
Currently watching: The X-Files, Season 4
Currently listening to: Les Misérables, London December 2005
My Plans for tomorrow: Studies, Hebrew, Studies, Psalms, More Studies, More Hebrew ...