Wednesday, 17 January 2007

Diary Makes All The Difference!

If you think the title of today's post is strange, don't worry - so do I! *lol*
As I think most of you have noticed, I haven't been in a great mood the last few days ... actually, I haven't been feeling very good since I came down here after my holiday visit. And I don't know if I have completely lost my mind, or if I have actually found the reason for my horrible moods.

As you may or may not know, I am an eager diary-writer! I did keep a diary when I was younger, but ended when I got on sick-leave, things around me were just too overwhelming to write down. Since January 2004 I have started writing again, and during intense periods of my life I write a lot! Well, when I'm visiting my families (like now, during Christmas), I don't get the chance to write the way I'm used to. I can't for instance write in my diary if somebody else sits next to me! Totally impossible! And since it's often high activity-levels until about midnight, I'm so tired that I can't write then either.
This means that I don't really have a routine to write when I come back home. Usually I get back into that very quickly, but not this time. I really haven't felt like writing, and when I actually have sat myself down to at least write something it has felt more like a chore than anything else ... which of course isn't the point!

Well, today was the first time since I came back here that I really, really felt I wanted to write, I enjoyed it and it felt wonderful to put all the thoughts, feelings and emotions into written words. And ... I've been in a much better mood today ...

Now, I don't know if the diary should take full credit for that ... but from what I can tell, that's the only thing that's different today - so who knows ...

I hope my better mood will stay, since I have a rather heavy day tomorrow, when I shall get everything ready, not only for the trip, but for Uni as well - since we have the introduction on Friday! *gulp*
Thank God I'm back to writing properly in my diary, because I'm definately gonna have a lot of thoughts and feelings to go through regarding Uni - and the weekend with my families! :)

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The Darkest Night said...

Glad to hear you're in a better mood! sounds like you better continue writing in your diary! :) Really cool that it's so helpful!

Jessica said...

Yeah ... can't say for sure that it's only my diary that has changed my mood, but it certainly seems to help, that's for sure!! :)

The Darkest Night said...

Hey..every little thing that helps is good! :)

Jessica said...

You've got that right! :)