If you think the title of today's post is strange, don't worry - so do I! *lol*
As I think most of you have noticed, I haven't been in a great mood the last few days ... actually, I haven't been feeling very good since I came down here after my holiday visit. And I don't know if I have completely lost my mind, or if I have actually found the reason for my horrible moods.
As you may or may not know, I am an eager diary-writer! I did keep a diary when I was younger, but ended when I got on sick-leave, things around me were just too overwhelming to write down. Since January 2004 I have started writing again, and during intense periods of my life I write a lot! Well, when I'm visiting my families (like now, during Christmas), I don't get the chance to write the way I'm used to. I can't for instance write in my diary if somebody else sits next to me! Totally impossible! And since it's often high activity-levels until about midnight, I'm so tired that I can't write then either.
This means that I don't really have a routine to write when I come back home. Usually I get back into that very quickly, but not this time. I really haven't felt like writing, and when I actually have sat myself down to at least write something it has felt more like a chore than anything else ... which of course isn't the point!
Well, today was the first time since I came back here that I really, really felt I wanted to write, I enjoyed it and it felt wonderful to put all the thoughts, feelings and emotions into written words. And ... I've been in a much better mood today ...
Now, I don't know if the diary should take full credit for that ... but from what I can tell, that's the only thing that's different today - so who knows ...
I hope my better mood will stay, since I have a rather heavy day tomorrow, when I shall get everything ready, not only for the trip, but for Uni as well - since we have the introduction on Friday! *gulp*
Thank God I'm back to writing properly in my diary, because I'm definately gonna have a lot of thoughts and feelings to go through regarding Uni - and the weekend with my families! :)