Thursday 25 October 2007

What Can I Say?

I have had two really rotten days now ... which is why I didn't write anything here yesterday. I'm not sure why things turn out the way they do, but things have not been good, that's for sure!

I'm getting very tired of never getting my life to work on routine - it's just one thing after another after another that makes my life a mess ... and I'm feeling really sick of it right now! Why should it be so hard to only get life to work? I'm not asking for miracles (at least I don't think so?!), but just feeling that the hours and days and weeks and months are passing by without everything being such a big deal ... Guess I don't have that much luck, right?!

Sorry about the mega-depressing entry here, fact of the matter is that I am starting to feel a little better now - or I wouldn't write here - so once again I guess I'll have to work hard at getting an okay day tomorrow ...
I still can't help but being frustrated about things never ever working out! I know I have to fight for it, and that problems just don't solve themselves, but I honestly think I haven't done anything but fight like crazy for the past five or six years ... and I'm not sure if I can keep on fighting like this to make every day or even every hour work out, especially considering I might have as much as 40-50 years left to live ... that makes up a whole lot of days and hours ....

I really shouldn't have written this entry, I feel that these thoughts might not be so suitable in a blog, but once I started writing, I couldn't really help myself and the words just sort of popped out ...
Guess I shouldn't go on about it anymore though ...

(I realize the thumbnail of the graphic looks a little strange, but just click on it to see it in real size and it will look better)




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My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Dödens medicin, Olov Svedelid
Currently watching: Stargate SG-1 (season 1)
Currently listening to: De Hjältemodiga, Astrid Lindgren
My Plans for tomorrow: Studies probably

6 comments:

The Darkest Night said...

aw...sorry to hear that sis! *hugs*
I hope you're having a nicer day today!

LOVE the graphic btw !! so cool!!

(a little hint - when you are changing the size of an image like that in Photoshop first make it into one single layer...otherwise some effects tend to look a bit strange when you make it smaller (like frames, effects on writing...stuff like that)...no biggie though :)

The Darkest Night said...

(I was referring to the thumbnail not the big version of course*lol* hope I wasn't sounding rude..)

Jessica said...

OF COURSE (God, I'm stupid)!! Why didn't I think of that ... it's so obvious!!!
Thanks for pointing it out to me (and no, it wasn't rude at all!!), I'm certainly going to keep it in mind in the future! :)

The Darkest Night said...

no prob! I've made that mistake a few hundred times or so..*lol*

Jessica said...

*LOL* Then I can afford to make it a few more times if it comes to that! :D :D

The Darkest Night said...

you got that right *LOL*