Today I've been studying, attending lectures at Uni and trying to run a bunch of errands - naturally nothing really worked out, so I ended up doing some things that I hadn't planned for today, but instead didn't get some things done that I really should have done tonight! Oh, did I mention how confusing everything is?!?!?
I do think I have found a pretty good way of dealing with the whole mess though! I'm not sure I can stick with it when Christmas is coming (me NOT like Christmas), or when exams and seminars and papers and other horrible stuff are more real - but for now it seems to work. I'm constantly trying to tell myself to "simply" (it's not that simple though!) "give it my all and hope for the best." That is simplifying things, I know, but the basic idea isn't that bad! If I can do everything I can in order to work things out; study as much as I possible can, try to work out issues or make plans or run errands or whatever - as best as I can, then I can at least in some way be satisfied with that!
I'm not sure wether things will work out just because of that, because my experience has often been the oposite actually - work yourself into a pulp and everything exploads in your face - but even if that should happen, I can at least be satisfied with the fact that I did everything in my power for things to work out!
In this lies also the idea of not assuming things in advance - wether they are good or bad! I don't know wether I will pass the two courses I have left (to take a very real and actual dilemma right now), even if I study 24/7 I might not pass - but if I don't I'm going to have to deal with that when it happens. I can't sit now, when it's weeks (almost months) left before the exams and start frantically worrying about what will happen if I don't pass. Instead I should try to use that energy to something creative - namely studies!!! Even if there will be Hell to pay if I don't pass my courses (or even one of them) - on many different levels - I'm going to have to deal with that then! For now, all I can do is give everything I have, and hopefully a bit more, in trying to actually get it to work!
Wow, a long and serious discussion, I really didn't think I had it in me after this long and tiresome day!
Finishing off with something a bit more pleasant though - three pictures from the dinner Saturday night! :) (thanks, Sara!!!)
My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: Very confusing, as I'm combining a lot of different books right now
Currently watching: ER
Currently listening to: ---
My Plans for tomorrow: Shopping, lectures, errands, studies