Monday, 1 September 2008

Day #1 Complete!

Well, apparently I have survived my first day this semester - even though right now it hardly feels that way. Well, maybe not so bad ...
I had the introduction at 10 this morning, and I met a few people I knew at the Department which was really nice! It's such a vast difference now, from what it was some two years ago ... even though I'm not at all a social butterfly, and I feel awkward and anxious some of time, I actually do feel like I belong there, which is a major step forward for me!

Regarding the course ... well, I don't really know what to say. I guess it was some things good and some things bad - but I did run into a lot of unexpected stuff, on a many levels - and most of them were not pleasant surprises, so to speak. Since this is a public blog, I will not go into detail, I don't really feel comfortable doing that here, but I have felt a little bit like I've been riding an insane roller coaster most of the day ...

After lectures I got to spend some time with Lena - yay! - and we've decided on regular study dates a few times a week. Even though we're not taking the same courses this semester *sob* it doesn't mean we can't study together - and that feels really great!
I also went to talk to "CSN" - and I think I've kind of sorted out my financial situation, if things work the way they say they should work ... *little sigh* Anyway, I'm hoping I can get my money in a few weeks at least.

Then I went home, did some grocery shopping, made dinner, wrote in my diary - and when I looked at my watch it was after FIVE ... actually close to 5.30!! *PANIC*
Since we had to review basic Swedish grammar, learn the entire Greek alphabet and were supposed to be able to actually read sentences in Greek ... for tomorrow morning ... 8 a.m.
I have been studying pretty much ever since then - with a few breaks - and I've retyped my lecture notes, I'm fairly sure I know at least most of the alphabet, I worked through a paper with some sentences we got today (but they were sort of 'cheating', so I'm not sure they should count). I did try to read some words in Greek ... didn't have much success at all. I didn't feel I quite got the pronounciation of the letters today - at least not to the point where I feel I can pronounce three-syllable-words!!

Since today was very confusing and I don't really know how I feel about everything, I can't help but feel rather anxious about tomorrow. I feel like I don't know what to expect at all, if I'm prepared enough, or how things will turn out - and I cope badly with that sort of insecurity. I know there's not much I can do about it now, I just have to make the best of it I can, and hope things work out ... but I do have a hard time relaxing.
Since I probably have to get up before 4 a.m. tomorrow - as I need major diary-time right now - I should think about winding down, if I'm going to get at least a few hours sleep ... but I want to look through some stuff again, before putting the books aside ...

While I'm not feeling the best tonight - certain aspects of today really have been good, so I guess I should try to hang on to them as much as I can, right?! :)

My Life At The Moment!
Currently reading: God knows ... New Testament Greek Letters perhaps?
Currently watching: I think I did get a glimpse of Stargate SG-1 (season 8) while having dinner.
Currently listening to: Nothing
My Plans for tomorrow: NT-lectures, mentor-meeting, studies, errands ... more studies ...


The Darkest Night said...

sorry I haven't commented in a while *oops*

Just wanted to wish you GOOD LUCK on your studies! I hope this semester will be great for you! *hugs*

Jessica said...

Hi! Good to see you again! :)
(and no problem!)
THANKS for wishing me luck ... things started out kinda hairy, but I'm hoping it will work out eventually!

The Darkest Night said...

I'm sure you'll do great!! :)

hope to catch you online some day soon...*hugs*

Jessica said...


I hope so too! :)