Since I started this blog I have made an effort to make at least one entry every day, and I would like to continue doing that, even though some days aren't that much fun to write about!
Today can be seen as either practical or emotional on my part - they differ quite a lot! Looking at today from a practical perspective, things have worked out! I had more or less a full-scale anxiety attack this morning, but managed to go anyway (and that took some doing, believe me!!), and as far as the practical is concerned, I think I have coped fairly well during the entire day.
On the emotional level though - not great!! I sort of found out something, or heard something ... I know it's all very vague, but anyway - it really, really disturbed me a lot! When this happened, all my rationality went away, I couldn't really connect to rationality at all after this, I spent the rest of the day entirely on the emotional level, and that was awfully tough!! To be honest, and I'm trying not to exagerate here, I don't think I've been in a public place for ... oh, it must be about six hours, and felt that bad in a very long time!! It took all my energy to cope, and now I am completely drained, and I feel very low!
I'm sorry I can't go into more detail regarding all this - I realize it sounds like I've gone insane or something ... I don't think I have (although I'm starting to wonder sometimes!!!), but I really don't feel comfortable writing about specific details here.
I'm really sorry to have write such a depressing blog entry today, but I can't really think of anything else to write, I don't feel up to making some movie/tv show/musical review or that kind of stuff, so I guess you'll have to live with this somewhat depressing entry!
I'm very sorry about not being able to look at things from a practcial angle, because I think I would be able to be a bit more optimistic then - but at the moment, emotions have complete control.
I hope I'll feel better for my next entry tomorrow!